Elaine|Billie Eilish

92: A for effort

Elaine's POV

I've been going to therapy for the past few days and it's been bittersweet because I have to relive what happened. I hate to admit but I'm starting to enjoy talking to my therapist. She's not your typical stuck up therapist, instead of writing down she records you then gives you her feed back on the next session. I know it's kinda odd but it works for me. Billie had been very loving and supportive throughout this process even though she still tries to convince me to open a case. I liebto Isa and say I'm having extra shifts when I'm going to therapy so she doesn't know. I get back to the apartment from my therapist and I find Isa helping Billie cook.

Elaine: hey

Isa: hey sis

Billie: babe how was your day?

I toss my briefcase on the couch and take off my heels then sit on the sofa.

Elaine: it was tiring my legs are sore

Billie: let me finish up here then I'll give you a foot massage

Elaine: you're heaven sent I tell you

Billie: (smile)

Elaine: let me go freshen up then I'll come back

Isa: don't take too long dinner is almost ready and I'm starving

Elaine: (giggle) okay

I go freshen up then wear my onesie.

Isa: finally we've been waiting

Elaine: you're just overreacting

We eat dinner and it's not horrible at all considering the fact that both Isa and Billie are horrible cooks.

Elaine: this is not bad at all

Isa: really?

Elaine: yeah it's edible

Billie: A for effort

Elaine: (giggle) yeah it's definitely an A for effort

After dinner Isa washes the dishes and Billie does as she promised, which is to give me a foot massage.

Elaine: Billie

Billie: mamas

Elaine: I've been thinking...

Billie: yeah?

Elaine: I'm going to open a case

Billie: really?

Elaine: yeah

Isa comes and sit across us

Isa: what case? What are you talking about?

I sit up straight and pat a space in the sofa next to me. She complies and looks at me with eyes full of worry.

Elaine: do you remember when I went to grand's house on Noah's birthday?

Isa: yes I remember

Elaine: Uhm...on that day something happened

Isa: what happened?

I take a deep breath then Billie holds my hand tight and I say these words as fast as I can.

Elaine: Samuel raped me

She stares at me and it seems like she just lost her hearing ability before she started crying. I pull her in for a hug and she sobs in my arms and I feel tears falling from my face.

Elaine: Isa it's okay

Isa: I'm sorry for failing you, I should've come with you then none of this would've happened. Elaine I'm sorry I failed being there for you.

Elaine: no look at me

I cup her face and she was crying I could see the heartbreak in her eyes. She looked like she was in pain.

Elaine: Isa it's not your fault okay? It's nobody's fault but Samuel's. It's not your fault that he felt he had a right to do as he pleases with me. Isa failing me is something you'll never do even if you tried. You always know how to lifts my spirits when I'm feeling down and you tolerate my moods, that's enough for me. I just need you to be strong for me okay? because from time to time I'll lose my strength and I'll need you to be the one who gives it back to me like you've always done. It's gonna be tough at times they'll drag my name to the ground and stomp on it please don't give up on me when that happens because that's when I'll need you, my sister the most.

Isa: Elaine why didn't you tell me? I could've been there for you. You didn't have to carry this all by yourself.

Elaine: I wasn't carrying it alone Billie has been helping me. She even convinced me to go to therapy

Isa turned to Billie who was looking at us in awe.

Isa: thank you for taking care of my sister. Thank you for taking care of her in her time of need. I'm so glad she has someone like you by her side because if it was any body else they would've left by now. Thank you ninja

Billie: it's okay I love taking care of your sister. She's very special to me and I love her more than I love me so it feels natural.

She sits and looks at me with eyes full of sorrow. Tears still streaming down her face.

Elaine: (smile) don't cry I'm gonna be alright

She flashes a smile despite the tears in her eyes.

Elaine: please don't tell mom I wanna tell her myself

Isa: okay

Elaine: Isa don't cry you're gonna make me cry

She wipes her tears away

Isa: see I'm not crying

Elaine: I love you Isa

Isa: I love you too, I want to sleep now

Elaine: okay goodnight

Isa: goodnight

Billie: good night ninja

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