I've got you babe - Jennifer and Justin (Justifer)

Scared of the outcome

A week later

"Babe" Justin shouted to Jen from the bedroom "Everything okay?" He could hear her being sick in the bathroom.

After no response, he dragged himself out of bed to her.

"Jen" he said softly, seeing her leaning over the toilet, her face white as a sheet.

"I'm okay" she whispered looking up at him.

He sat on the bath at the side of her and reached over, rubbing her back "No you're not."

She tried to smile weakly in return but frankly, she felt awful.

"I hope you haven't caught Rosie's bug. It's taken her a week to recover."

Jen moved, sitting in between Justin's legs resting her head against him.

He stroked her tangled hair off her face "Do you want some water?"

"Yes please. I feel really weak.. could you pass me those tablets out the cabinet honey. They might make me feel a bit better"

He reached above getting her what she wanted and she glady took them.

"Thank you honey. I'm sorry for waking you up" she lifted herself up and sat next to him on the tub.

"It's fine babe. Let's get you back to bed" they hobbled back to bed, cuddling up together.

Jen had been sick on and off for 3 days now. She felt constantly tired and was struggling to look after Rosie and Justin but tried her best to continue her day to day life.

"How're you feeling today?" Justin asked as she entered the kitchen at midday.

"A bit better. The mornings and through the night are the worst" she walked over to him wrapping her arms around him.

"Jen.. I don't want to over step the mark here but do you think you could be pregnant?" he asked quietly, pulling back slightly.

She let go of him and stepped back leaning up the counter. She looked down and back up at him smiling slightly. "Honestly honey.. it has crossed my mind"

"Why don't you take a test?" he asked kindly.

"I guess I'm scared of the outcome" she looked down again.

He reached over and held he hand "Have you got one?"

"One arrived this morning" she said quietly, worried how Justin would react going behind his back.

"Babe.. it's okay" he reassured her "I'll check on Rosie, you go take it. At least we'll know if it's that or a sickness bug"

"Yeah I guess you're right. I don't want to keep feeling like this" she said truthfully.

He kissed her forehead then left to see Rosie, letting her do it in her own time.

Shortly after Jen joined Justin in the living room.

"Where is she?" she asked unable to see Rosie.

He pointed to her passed out with Dolly on her bed. They smiled sweetly.

"I've done it" Jen broke the ice, knowing Justin didn't want to pressure her.

He turned to look at her as she joined him on the couch, placing the test on the table in front of them.

"Jen.. whatever it is we'll be okay" he rubbed her leg, noticing her nervousness.

She nodded and placed her hand over his.

She slowly grabbed the test up and bought it closer.

"..It's negative" she said quietly turning her head to Justin.

"Oh.. okay then" he didn't know how to respond.

"I'm sorry" she whispered, her eyes full of guilt.

"What.. no baby it's okay" he pulled her in for a hug and kissed her.

After a few minutes Jen spoke up "I know we haven't discussed having more but if it were to happen.. would that be okay with you?"

"The moment I saw you with our daughter, I knew it was all you ever wanted and truth be told, I realised being a father was a happiness I never knew I'd have. If you were pregnant again.. that would be great but I'm not saying it needs to definitely happen if it's not meant to be" he answered honestly and Jen smiled softly, rubbing his leg.

"Having more kids with you would be incredible honey. I'm well aware of my history and my age and all the other factors.. and if it happened I would be over the moon" they looked at each other and smiled.

"Are you saying you want to try?"

"I.. I don't know. I guess I wouldn't say no" she answered.

"Well I know we haven't done anything since my accident but how about when we next do, we don't do anything to stop it. We don't actively try but if it happens it happens.. no pressure" he answered sweetly, knowing they were both happy either way.

"You're right" she paused, squeezing his hand

"But honestly.. if it never did I'm not entirely gutted. I'm so lucky to have had one healthy pregnancy. I never expected that so I don't want to disappoint you if it never happens again. Rosie is everything and more. I'm so happy and grateful that we have her that I feel I'm at a stage in my life where I'm at peace. Having one healthy, happy baby is something I'm so thankful for" she answered truthfully, letting all her thoughts out. She never expected to feel so at ease when it came to the baby topic but Rosie had changed that for her.

"I never expected you to react like that babe" he answered honestly.

"I guess I just feel lucky to have been given the chance. It would be a miracle and amazing if it happened again but I don't want to pressure us."

"I know what you mean. And I won't be disappointed Jen. I feel the same way about Rosie. If she's the only one we have, that's extra special" Jen leant into him.

"I'm glad we're on the same page honey. I was worried you'd definitely want more or non at all"

"As long as I've got my girls, anything else is a bonus. But certainly no losses" they kissed deeply.

"I guess I've got a stomach bug then" Jen spoke after a while.

"We'll look after you."