Why do I always push away the people I love the most?
I hate men
Why am I this way?
Why can't concentrate?
I don't want to feel sad anymore
I don't want to end up braking my body
I just want a hug
Why won't my mother listen?
I hate my school therapist, she doesn't know shit about me. She doesn't even care to hear me out. Why did they want my mom to see her if she's not the one failing the classes. I AM!
No one ever listens
No one cares
I'm so afraid of what he thinks of me. He does me likes me as much.
I don't want to talk
I feel like crying, but the tears won't come out
I want to express myself
I never get to choose
Why do they get mad when I don't speak?I'm so sorry
I just want to go back to the time I thought life was nice
I'm scared
They always judge but never try to understand
I want to be myself
I want to run away so badly
What do I do?
This can't go on forever, I don't want it to go on forever
They won't listen to my needs
I want to be heard for once
I want to be happy again
I really hate myself
I don't like my body
People don't like my body, the ones that do want to hurt itIt's not fair
Do I deserve it?
I want to get rid of this useless body
I hate it
I hate my voice
I hate my face
I hate my life
I hate the way that I am
I love women
I wish I could meet the people that made me smile, that made me feel like someone. Who let me be me.
I would like to hold them tightly in my arms
I want to love them
They're precious to me
They made me feel something I didn't feel for a long time. I like that
I would love to have someone who would be by my side no matter what. I'd give them anything
I can't have that because I don't deserve it
I'm a horrible person
Someone like me doesn't deserve that but it would be so nice
The only thing I know how to do is hurt others and make them feel like shit
I'm so ungrateful, they deserve everything not me
Anyone who let me be by their side only pitted me. I just bother them and followed them around like a dog. Everyone noticed that
I'm so close to ending it all
That's too selfish for me to do
It would be better if something or someone would do it for me
I'm such a bad person
I'm so sorry
I'm really sorry, Iove you
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My Diary
RandomLike it says in the title, it's a diary. But people can read it. I thought this would be a funny idea and make my future self question my stupid entries. Despite being a diary, I won't be updating daily. ⚠️This is mostly venting, so there will be...