Now and Forever / s.w

Chapter 49

It's been some time since the fight with Sam, he's been calling and calling but I never answer him.
But I have more important things to focus on, like how I sent my paper to the school in New York. They said they'll have a response given to me by next week.
If I got accepted or not.

If I get accepted, I have to skip senior year at Westside. I'll have to move to New York, to finally start college.

If I don't get accepted, I'll have the choice of trying again next year and I'll have to attend Westside for the final year.

I got dressed, and I grabbed my things and got into my car. Another call from Sam, decline.
I was planning on driving to the hospital, but I found myself driving to Wesleys place. I didn't stop myself.

I knocked on his door, and once he answered, he hugged me.

"El, what are you doing here?"

I shrugged, but then an unexpected tear rolled down my face.

"El, tell me what's wrong."

More tears rolled down my face, and he hugged me again.

"Sam and I aren't on good terms, I just felt like I could come to you."

He nodded and said,

"You can come to me, for anything. My opinion, I don't think Sam deserves you. He's hurt you too many times."

He invited me inside, and he said,

"What are some good things to focus on?"

I smiled.

"I sent in my paper to the school yesterday!"

His face lit up and he responded,

"Yes! You're gonna make it El I just know it."

"I hope so. I really want to see where it takes me."

Wesley put his SnapBack on my head and laughed.

"That's my good luck snap, keep it until you get the letter back."

I nodded and hugged him one last time.

"Thanks for letting me come here for a bit, I really appreciate it."

"Anytime El, call me whenever."

I headed out to the hospital, and once I got there, I just spent a couple hours with Stefan, talking to him. He couldn't respond, obviously, but I knew he could hear me.
We're connected, he's my other half. He'll hear me always.

The hours passed, and I noticed nobody showed up to the hospital today. I decided to head home, since it was already 6.

But as I pulled into the driveway, all the lights were turned off. I slowly walked inside, but then a crowd of people jumped up and yelled

SURPRISE!

And I'm currently having a heart attack.

"Shit, you guys scared the hell out of me!"

Marley, Mallory, Glazer, and Emily Wilk came and hugged me.

"Happy early birthday! We know your birthday is actually in 3 weeks, but just incase you get accepted... We didn't want to be late and miss it. SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

I smiled and thanked them. I walked around, greeting everybody.
Then I saw G, J, Skate, and Mike. Even Skates little brother Stew and another friend Brock.
But I never saw Leigh, I wonder where she was.

"Guys! Hey!"

They strangled me with hugs, and they even got me gifts.

"I hope you guys have the receipts because I don't like it when you spend your money on me!"

They shrugged and Nate replied,

"Doesn't matter, it's your birthday and it may be the last time we see you for a while. Wait a sec, who's hat is that?"

I totally forgot it was wearing it.

"Oh, it's Wesleys. He gave it to me today for good luck with the school."

And right after I said that, they guys stood there awkwardly looking behind me, and back at me.

And I turn around to see Sam, standing there with a flower, but after what I just said, he walked away leaving the flower behind.

I pull the hat off of my head and try to find Sam, seeing him sitting out front.

"Sam,"

"I don't wanna talk El. I tried, I really did. Now I'm gonna respect your space and leave you alone."

I sat down next to him and sighed.

"I was ignoring your calls because I wasn't ready to talk. I'm getting my plan in action, I can't have anyone fuck this up for me."

"I know, I regret what I said to you, dick move. But I know you're getting accepted, I couldn't bare the thought of you leaving me hating me."

I looked up at Sams face, seeing his expression hurt and alone.

"I could never hate you, ever. I love you too much, and I hate myself for that. I promised myself never to let a boy get ahead of myself. But I did, and this school is everything for me. I'm willing to give up my life here, and start a new one. You can still visit me-"

Sam cut me off and looked me back in the eye.

"But that's the thing! When I'm around you, I feel happy but also sad knowing I have to leave you once again, and I feel like I have to be around you 24/7 so I don't feel this way! You changed, who I was as a person. I don't smoke anymore, and I don't do the things I used to. And if you leave, my world will fall apart. Have you seen my house lately? Everything is either smashed, or out of place because I can't control myself knowing you aren't with me. If I visit you, then I have to leave. You're my drug, El. You're the one I'm truly madly in love with and I'm addicted to you. And I don't know what hurts more. The fact you went to Wesley today, or the fact that I'm destroying your chances of becoming who you want to be. I can't live with that.

So that's why I'm letting you go."