Nate looked at her and then looked at me. Jessica stared at me for a long time at tumingin kay Nate. He moved closer to me at hinawakan ang bewang ko, napatingin naman si Jessica sa kamay ni Nate.
"Hello, Alexis" She smiled. A casual smile, hindi plastic kundi normal lang na ngiti. I smiled back.
"Wow, I guess everything is going fine with the both of you"
Nate smiled. "Yes, finally"
I looked at him. Hindi ba siya na a-awkward? Kasi ako, sobra!
"What brings you here?" Tinanong niya si Jessica.
"Oh that! Nagbabakasyon lang. Trying to get back to my hometown" She smiled.
I was just staring at her. She looks good , really good. I absent mindedly touched my hair. Dammit! Feeling ko ang haggard haggard ko ngayon. I can feel Nate's hand gently grip my waist. Napatingin ako sakanya but he was staring at her.
"That's good to hear" He smiled casually.
"Can I invite you to dinner?" She asked. Oh! She wants to eat with him. Ang romantic naman, balikan ng feelings ba 'to?
Nate looked at me. I was just giving him a casual look. Why is he looking at me like that? If he wants to be with her, edi wow.
"That sounds wrong, I mean the both of you. Let's have dinner together"
"It's fine. We'll go" I answered. Let's see how this dinner would go. Jessica smiled genuinely as if walang bad blood samin. Or meron pa nga ba?
"Just tell us the location at susunod din kami. We'll check our baby muna" Nate said.
Nung binaggit niya yung salitang 'baby' merong konting glitch sa mga mata ni Jessica.
"Sa Bridgetown nalang, sa paborito mo"
Oh my God. Ba't parang naiinis ako sa sinabi niya? Anong sa paborito mo? Kalma lang self. I'm the upper hand, right?
"Alright, we'll see you" Nate nodded. After that, Jessica waved goodbye. So it's me and him again.
"Is it okay with you? I mean if you're not okay with it pwedi naman nating e cancel"
He smiled. I smiled back, alam kong medjo awkward ang dinner na 'to but i'll just give it a try. Wala namang mawawala, right?
"Okay lang. Wala naman sigurong masama, dinner lang naman yun. Is it okay with you? I mean baka magkaroon ng tension between you" Or us.
"Basta okay sa'yo, it's fine with me" He smiled. I nodded pero may parte talaga na ayoko kasi baka magkaroon na naman ng twist tong nangyayari samin. We're fine, we're finally good and this happens. Is it hard for us to be happy? Or am I overthinking?
I looked at the mirror when I finally found the outfit to wear. I want to look so beautiful today kasi baka may maagaw na naman sakin. I think it's okay? I've never been this stressed out when choosing the outfit. This is so frustrating!
"Are we good to go?" Nate asked and he looked at me. He smiled at lumapit sakin, he kissed my forehead.
"Are you uncomfortable? Don't force yourself in doing this, we can have dinner date dito sa bahay" He smiled. I didn't.
"Let's not cancel this one, I need to know something"
"Okay, Yndi. Always remember that it's always you" He softly said. I nodded. Well maybe, but I need to confirm something and maybe this dinner is the answer.
I looked at him seriously. I don't want to lose you, Nate. I've suffered enough! It's time to put my happiness first.
The ride to the resto seemed like forever. I am feeling uneasy talaga. What would you do if you and your baby daddy will have dinner together with his ex fiancé? Ano? Chill lang ba?
When we entered the venue. I automatically saw Jessica sitting alone. She is very pretty in that champagne dress. God, Yndi! Get yourself together.
I looked at Nate. Trying to read him when he saw Jessica. He was just looking at her casually.
Jessica saw us and waved at tumango naman si Nate. We sat down and I noticed that Jessica is looking at me seriously. What? Am I too pretty tonight? I smiled at her and she did too--a genuine smile.
"The two of you looked good together"
I flinched. Was that sincere? I looked at Nate who is smiling at her.
"Never been this good" He smiled at me and I did too.
"You look good, Jess. I like your dress" I truthfully said. E maganda naman talaga yung damit niya. Wag lang niyang sabihin na Thanks, this is from Nate.
She smiled brightly.. too bright that I began to overthink. What is she thinking? Is she trying to look cute for Nate or what?
"Thank you, Alexis."
We ordered our food and we began to talk, just the usual topic. I looked at my salad, I have lots of thoughts at feeling ko ay sasabog ang utak ko.
"I'm getting married" Jessica announced. I immediately looked at her and she was looking at us and had this smile plastered on her face.
"That's good to hear. Congratulations" Nate smiled genuinely. I congratulated her too.
"Congratulations, Jessica" I smiled. I'm happy for her.
"That's why I'm here, dito kasi kami balak na magpakasal.... and also I wanted to see the both of you."
Kinabahan ako sa sinabi niya pero tumango lamang si Nate. Maybe she moved on and forgot about the past.
Nagpaalam ako na mag c-cr at pumunta agad sa rest room. I looked at myself in the mirror to see if there's something on my face.
"Are you done, Alexis?" Jessica asked and locked the door. Tangina, baka mag sabunotan kami dito.
"Ah, Oo."
"I am so happy for you two. I mean it, Alexis. I have forgotten about the past na, It was kinda hellish but look at where we are now... we are all happy"
Hindi ako makapagsalita, ano ba dapat ang isasagot ko? Thank you?
"I'm sorry for what happened before. I know it was my mistake and I am genuinely sorry" maluha-luha kong sabi. I am deeply sorry.
"It was my fault too. It's always been you, Alexis. You always have his heart" She smiled at me.
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