EX Friends With Benefits

Fifty two

Nate asked me for marriage. He asked me to marry him!

I looked at him seriously like he said something horrible. "Ano?" I asked him.

"I said. Will you marry me?" He looked at me seriously. I confusely looked at him.

"I wanted to but you know I can't. Someone already said yes to you" I sadly said. I hugged him tightly. I really love him.

"You still didn't say YES" he seriously said.

"Si Jessica? diba siya yung fiancé mo? will she agree? Just imagine how bad this may led. This will be a scandal" I sadly said.

"Why would it be? I choose you" He said seriously.

"Pag uusapan natin yan pag uwi natin" I sighed.

"Are we okay?" He asked. I nodded.

"Yes, we're in good terms now" I smiled. Pero hindi siya ngumiti kaya napakunot ang noo ko.

"I mean, are we a couple now? I asked you for marriage, Yndi"

Ha? "Ano? seryoso ka? I mean, Oh God! we're drunk! ohmy! This is alcohol!" I laughed. para akong baliw! this is all because of alcohol!

"You're crazy, I'm being serious here"

"Hindi, change of mood. from drama to happiness, this is fucking alcohol! God! What am I thinking? Is it really easy na maging tayo? For fuck's sake you're with somebody! ohmygod!" I laughed. para na akong tanga.

"Yndira! Jessica and I are over. Ilang beses ko ba yun sasabihin sayo? I ended up things between me and her when you were pregnant with Kernel! that's the reason why I haven't been there because I settled things. I cleaned the mess. I told you that! It's always been you. Always you Yndi. I love you all through these years. I always do. You are my peace, Shit! I don't want to tell you all these! I wanted to surprise you when we go back! I was always subtle about things." He said.

Hindi ako nakapagsalita. Was it all true?

"What?" I softly said.

"Marry me, Yndi." He sighed when he noticed na wala talaga ako sa katinuan! Hello? I'm tipsy right now and I can't process all the things he said.

"I can't, I mean this is not easy. I'm lost, Nate. Hindi ko ma proseso yang mga sinasabi mo. Why are you asking me for marriage already? Eh hindi nga naging tayo! and we will never be because we're complicated. I don't know, I wanted to be with you but marriage? I think hindi yun para sa atin. Why are you asking me that?" Wala sa katinuan kong tanong. Nate is really hard to read! ba't pa dalos dalos siya ng desisyon?

"Hindi naging tayo? So what? we were a couple but we didn't know because we just ignore it. I was with you always, I visited you everyday and night in your room, we shared a lot of kisses and hugs. We have Kernel. I always go back to you, Yndi. Ilang beses ko bang uulitin? Pero kung sa tingin mo ay hindi kapa handa, I can wait."

"You want me to marry you? Why now? Why all of the sudden? At tinanong mo pa talaga ako kun kelan nakainom tayo" I said in dismay.

"Because it's so hard to talk to you, palagi mong sinisingit si Jessica. I told you hindi na kami"

I looked at him seriously. Nate never lies to me, I just can't believe all the things that he's saying right now. Why all of the sudden?

I started crying. Is this all true? I waited for this for years! I always wanted to be Nate's no. 1, I always wanted to be the girlfriend who cheers for him during his games, I always wanted him to be mine.

"Yndi, don't cry. Nasasaktan ako, I always make you cry."

"I'm just.. I can't believe this is all happening. You—asking me for marriage" I sobbed.

"I always wanted to ask you that whenever when we're together"

"That day when Jessica asked you If you'll leave her because I was pregnant you said that you'll never leave her. What does it mean?"

"She was sick, I just can't leave her then. That's the reason why I wasn't with you because I just made sure she's okay"

"and you left me and Kernel?"

"I'm sorry for that but please let us worked together on this, I love you Yndi. Is it hard to believe?"

"Yes! It's all of the sudden. Are you sure it's not the alcohol?" I asked nervously.

"I'm not drunk, you are"

"Yndi, please be with me. I'm asking you to marry me."

"I don't know, Nate. I just can't. Ask me that if we're not drunk or whatever, It's just all of the sudden. Ask me that when you're sobber. I can't"

"Just don't stop loving me coz I never did"