EX Friends With Benefits

Fifty three

We went back to our room. It was really awkward kasi walang nagsasalita. I still can't believe what just happened. Him asking me for marriage? It's like a fucking imagination.

"I meant what I said back there, Yndi" he broke the silence. I looked at him seriously and so did he.

"I don't know. I just can't believe it" Umiling ako.

He took my hand and intertwined with his. I dreamt of this all my life and now it's finally happening. I want to cry pero nagsasawa na ako. Ilang luha na rin ang nasayang ko.

"Magiging masaya ba tayo?" out of the blue kong tanong.

"Ofcourse, though there will be times na magkakagalit tayo pero we'll work it out. We've been through a lot of problem" He smiled. I smiled too, i hope when we go back this won't end. I still can't believe it.

"Are you saying all of these kasi gusto mong ano.. you want to fuck me?" pag aalinlangang tanong ko. He looked at me like I said something stupid.

"Ba't mo naman natanong yan? the last time we had sex, it was two years ago? Nakaya ko yun, wag kang mag isip ng ganyan. I never thought of it" Umiling siya.

"Really? You and Jesssica? did you have sex?" I asked. Please say NO kasi masasaktan talaga ako SOBRA.

"We don't do sex, I never planned to. We just kissed." He seriously said.

"Sure ka? I mean, you two are engaged. Kahit touch touch lang?" I asked.

"No, I only did that to you. It doesn't feel right if it's with her. It's always you, Yndi. I've been denying it several times but still it's the truth" Humarap siya sa akin at tinignan ako sa mata. I looked at him.

"Can I kiss you?" He asked softly. I chuckled, wow di nga naman kami nag kiss after those madramang confessions.

"I don't know?" I looked away. Punyeta! para akong teenager na kinikilig at kinakabahan. amputa!

Lumapit siya sa akin at hinalikan ako. Parang may sumabog na hindi ko ma describe, parang bumalik lahat! bumalik kung ba't ba ako pumayag na ganto ang magiging set up namin. I really really love this guy who's kissing me right now!

"I miss you so bad" He said seriously and looked at me.

"If i'll marry you, would you tell me the truth?"

"I never lied to you. What truth are you refering to?"

"Did you really loved me? or was it because of the sex? How did you know that it's always been me?"

"I always go to your place, I won't do that if you were just a friend or what. I knew it all along, Yndi. When I saw you at Ericka's that's the time that I realized you are something, something that might ruin me. I was in a relationship that time but I badly want to be with you. It's not the sex, it's the way you make me feel at peace"

"Should I cry? or be happy? I don't know, Nate. I waited for this but not sa ganitong paraan. Lasing ako eh!"

He chuckled. "Okay, let's rest and tomorrow i'll ask you again when you're sober"

Tumango ako. I don't want to be close with him right now kasi awkward talaga. I hope he understands.

But right now I want to believe in every word he says. I know tomorrow will erase this but atleast narinig ko mula sa kanya ang mga salita na gusto kong marinig sa kanya years ago.

I looked at him and he was looking at me too. "You're so far" He sighed kahit ilang sentimetro lang ang pagitan namin.

I smiled a little. "I'm always close to you but you don't know that"

He smiled too.

Sana totoo ang lahat ng ito, sana pag gising ko ganito parin. Sana sambitin niya uli na mahal niya ako. Sana...