Let's Not Fall In Love (SUAREZ SERIES III)

Chapter 42

Chapter 42

Pagkatapos kong sabihin iyon, naramdaman ko ang paghigpit ng yakap ni Toper sa akin.

He didn't say a word, and I was thankful for that. Right now, what I needed was his hug, not words of comfort. He didn't have to say anything. I just really needed to feel his warmth.

Nang bahagya akong kumalma ay nagpasya akong umuwi na. He suggested that we use his car, but I didn't want to burden him anymore. It was more convenient for him for me to drive my own car, so he wouldn't have to go back and forth. Kapag kasi hinayaan ko na naman siyang ihatid ako pauwi gamit ang kanyang sasakyan, babalik na naman iyon sa XYZ para sasakyan ko naman ang kunin at ihatid.

Habang nasa biyahe ay tinawagan niya ako. I couldn't understand why at first when he was just driving right behind my wheel. But then, when he told me to turn on the speaker, I realized he just wanted to make it seem like we were together. Sitting next to each other instead of driving home together. Hindi naman kami nag-usap pero napanatag pa rin ako sa ganoon.

Toper and I never talked about his confession again and how I straight up rejected him. He seemed to understand now why I couldn't bring it up again. Alam niyang wala akong panahon para roon at alam niya kung ano'ng mahalaga sa akin ngayon.

May mga pagkakataon lang talaga na I just couldn't help but be amazed that he still stayed even after the rejection. Even when I told him I couldn't reciprocate his feelings.

Kabado ako nang makarating na kami sa complex. Lalo na nang bumaba pa siya ng sasakyan at tumingin pa sa bahay.

I felt guilty that I couldn't invite him inside. Sa tagal na naming magkakilala at simula nang dito kami tumira, hindi ko pa siya naimbitahang pumasok. I was always welcomed in his office at Mico Moco, in his room, and even at their mansion, but I couldn't do the same for him in my house.

Not before. And definitely not now. Not now that I knew Kristen might come running outside at any moment once she realized I was already home.

"Ayos na ako. You should go." I bit my lower lip when I realized I sounded too eager to make him leave. Baka makahalata pa kaya dinagdagan ko agad. "You look tired. You should rest as well."

I felt guiltier, though. Dahil alam kong malaking bahagi ako ng pagod niya. He really didn't have to help me with the investigation, but he insisted and wouldn't accept my refusal.

I knew that the money he was spending on the investigations wouldn't even make a dent in his wealth, but I still insisted that he should take my savings for that. Hindi man sapat pero mas lalo akong hindi matatahimik kung hindi niya ako hahayaang tumulong. Ayoko namang akuhin niya lahat dahil mas lalo akong papatayin ng konsensiya ko.

Of course, he refused to accept that as well. Pero sinabi kong kung hindi niya tatanggapin ay kalimutan na lang namin pareho ang paghahanap sa tatay ko. Kalimutan na lang namin ang insidenteng nangyari sa akin sa elevator.

He couldn't stomach that kaya napilitan ding tanggapin ang pera ko.

Lumamlam ang mga mata niya nang humakbang palapit sa akin. "We should both rest. I'll come back tomorrow, okay?"

Tumango na lang ako at hindi na nakasagot nang halikan niya ako sa noo. Sana lang ay walang biglang lumabas ng bahay. At sana rin ay wala sa paligid si Loey.

Nakahinga ako nang maluwang nang makita kong palabas na ng gate ang kanyang sasakyan.

Pagpasok ko sa loob ng bahay ay nadatnan ko ang tatlo sa sala na nanonood ng Kdrama. Malakas ang volume niyon at malakas din ang tawanan sa palabas kaya walang nakapansin sa pagdating ko. Ngayon lang ako nagpasalamat na dinadamay ni Loey sa hilig niya sa Kdrama sina Mama at Kristen.