Forth Beam short stories 2

Is it love? (Part 12)

Beam's P.O.V.

I decided to give Forth some space. I also needed some time for myself to process everything he said. Lam decided to stay with me and we just walked around for a while.

"So what troubles did you and Park face before getting together?" I asked curiously.

"Actually it was similar to you guys. Except we both had loved each other for a while but none of us were to scared to say anything. Then we met Wayo and became friends with him. I got closer to him though because he quickly noticed my feelings for Park. Then Park got jealous and we had a fight we're I told him I loved him. Then he confessed and I didn't believe him." Said Lam and I was listening attentively.

"Then what did he do? To prove to you that he really loved you?" I asked.

"I don't know he was patient and showed me he cared for me everyday. I'm not gonna lie it took a while before I believed him and I tried to push him away. But he didn't give up. So it's up to you fight for him until he believes you or you give up." Said Lam.

"I won't, give up I mean." I said and he nodded.

We returned to the house at dinner time. Lam patted my back when we walked in the walked towards Park. I looked for Forth but he was nowhere to be seen. At the dinner table he sat down next to me but we didn't even make eye contact and didn't talk to me. As I looked around the table I saw a couple people giving us pity looks but no one asked anything. I found that weird but I wasn't complaining. After everything that happened I didn't have much appetite so I just played around with my food. I looked at Forth hoping he would at least glance back at me but he didn't he was clearly ignoring me. I noticed he was barely eating too which worried me. After dinner was over I just went upstairs to our room. I wasn't expecting him to come to our room tonight. I was trying to think of ways I could show him I'm serious about him. But nothing was coming to mind. I was too distracted thinking back to this afternoon. The look of hurt on his face and what he said. I felt like the worst person in the world. I didn't know how much time had passed but I wasn't tired. I guess I was hoping Forth would come even if I knew he wouldn't. I finally looked at my phone and realized it was already two in the morning. I guess I should try to sleep I said lying back in bed as I was. It was useless I couldn't sleep. I heard the door to the room slowly open and I turned to look at it hopefully. To my surprise it was really him.

"Forth." I said and he sighed walking in.

"You should be sleeping." He said.

"I couldn't, what about you?" I asked. He looked sad still.

"I was worried." He said and I was confused.

"About what?" I asked.

"I noticed you didn't eat dinner." He said and I sighed looking down.

"I'm not hungry." I said.

"You need to eat something. I prepared you some sandwiches. I'm not good at cooking but I tried." He said and I was surprised. I looked at him again and I noticed the plate in his hand. He walked to the bed and sat down next to me.

"I'll eat if you eat with me. You also didn't eat anything." I said and he gave me a small smile before nodding.

"Fine." He said and we both took a sandwich from the plate. We were both eating in silence. I can't believe this though. He was so mad at me this afternoon and at dinner. But still he came to bring me food because he was worried. Why is he so good to me still? He makes me want to cry. I tried to hold my tears but in the end I couldn't. I tried to hide behind my sandwich and not look at him so he wouldn't noticed. But it was useless.

"Beam? Why are you crying? Is it that bad?" He asked and I laughed behind my tears. He looked at me for a second before reaching out with his hand to dry my tears.

"Please don't cry." He said sadly.

"I'm sorry I can't help it." I said trying my hardest to calm down. He scooted closer pulling me into his arms. I continued crying but now I was feeling guilty. He took what was left of the sandwich from my hand before hugging me tightly again. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't even be crying." I said but couldn't stop.

"It's ok just let it out." He said. I should be the one comforting him! But instead I'm a crying mess. I was the one who got us into this mess in the start and he's still so kind to me. I finally managed to get my emotions in check and stopped crying. But I didn't let go of him. I didn't want him to leave. I knew it was selfish but I needed him to be with me right now. I felt him move and I tightened my embrace around him.

"No don't leave, please." I said and he sighed.

"What are we doing Beam? I don't want us to hurt anymore." He said.

"Please give me a chance. I know you don't believe me, I know I don't deserve it. But I can't live without you Forth. What I did was wrong but I was confused. I didn't mean to hurt you I was just scared of everything. Specially my feelings I don't know how to explain it. I was in denial and it took us being hurt for me to realize it. The thought of losing you it's unbearable. I know I don't seem genuine right now and you think im doing it for the wrong reason. But I'm sure of what I feel even if I just realized. I want to be with you. I've never felt this way for anyone else you've always been special. I have a lot of friends I'm close to. I spend more time with them than with you these days. Still no one could replace you they don't even come close. Im not like this with anyone else. I want you always by my side only. I get jealous when I don't have you attention. I have realized so many things during this time that I would've never thought about. Because you were always there and I took you for granted. I thought I didn't need anything else from you because you already gave me all of you. It took me almost losing you to realize that. All I'm asking you for is a chance to prove myself to you. I don't care how much time you need I will fight for you with all I have until you realize im sincere." I said finally having a chance to pour my heart over. Forth was quiet for a while and I was trembling waiting for his response. I don't know what I will do if he refuses.

"I can't seem to be able to stay away from you even if I try. So I am going to give you a chance. But if at any moment you realize that you really don't have feelings for me just tell me. I don't want to be hurting more and I'd prefer to know the truth." He said and I nodded.

"Thank you, you won't regret it I promise. Soon we will finally be happy together." I said.

"I hope so." He replied.

"You're staying here with me right?" I asked. I wasn't going to let him leave from my embrace anyway but still I asked.

"I'm staying. Let's sleep I'm tired. It's been a hard day." He said and I nodded getting comfortable. In no time we were both asleep.