Forth Beam short stories 2

Bad day (part 7)

Beam's P.O.V.

I woke up a bit confused. I looked around the now somewhat familiar room. I was in Forth's room again. Yesterday he and I fell asleep watching a movie. So I was a little startled because I wasn't expecting to spend the night. I was about to get out of bed when I felt Forth moving. I turned to look at him and he was still asleep. Still, he managed to grab me by my waist pulling me closer. I was startled. He nuzzled his head on the crook of my neck. I was frozen in spot my heart beating wildly against my chest. It felt like an eternity passed before my heart calmed down. I managed to make some space between us without waking Forth. I took the time to look at his face in detail. He looked so peaceful. I found myself tracing his nose and lips with my finger. He stirred again waking up. I wanted to pull away but I couldn't he still had a grip on me.

"Beam." He whispered in his deep morning voice. The only thing I could do at that moment was gulp. What the hell is happening to me? I looked down my eyes stopping when they reached Forth's lips. That was a bad idea. Because I have the sudden urge to kiss him. We were so close if I just moved a little our lips would touch. What the hell am I thinking? I quickly looked up again to make eye contact with Forth. I couldn't figure out what he was thinking. Shit. I was embarrassed so I quickly sat down getting out of his embrace.

"How are you feeling?" I asked not looking at him. He took a while to respond.

"Good as new. Thanks to you." he said.

"Ok, that's good. Then I guess I should leave since you're better." I said glancing at him for a moment.

"I guess." he said.

I stood up from the bed and started picking my things up. Things have turned awkward. Forth just sat on the bed looking at me and that made me even more nervous. I quickly picked everything up and turned to look at Forth.

"I'll see you around?" I don't know why that sounded more like a question. He sighed.

"Sure." He said laying back down in bed. I took that as my cue to leave.

When I was back home I let out a relieved sigh. What was that? What exactly are we doing? This is all too confusing. I spent the rest of the day trying to distract myself from my thoughts. I did it all I cooked, cleaned, played video games, and watched tv. In the end, I couldn't even sleep. The thought I had been trying to avoid all day came crashing on me. I think I like Forth.

After only sleeping for a few hours I woke up feeling down. My sudden realization of my feelings didn't change the unsettling feeling. What was I supposed to do now? Getting romantically involved with Forth seemed impossible at best. I've managed to break down some of his walls in the last couple of weeks. But I'm still doubtful he considers me a friend instead of an annoyance. How could I hope for anything more? That made me feel sad. What am I supposed to do now? I guess getting him out of my life wouldn't be too hard. Considering he was barely in it to begin. I guess that's my only choice until I stop feeling this way. I couldn't help but think how he cared about me. Or the last two days we spent together. Especially this morning waking up next to him. I spent all my day wallowing in my self-pity. I only texted Pha to let him know I wasn't feeling like going to class. Thankfully he didn't ask many questions. I really didn't have many answers right now. A knock on my door woke me up from the light sleep I had fallen into. I groaned walking to open the door ready to fight whoever was on the other side. Instead, I was surprised to see Forth. So much so that I didn't even react.

"What's wrong with you? Are you sick because of me?" He said coming closer and putting his hand on my forehead to see if I was sick. I quickly took a step back embarrassed.

"I'm not sick. What are you doing here?" I asked confused. He just looked at me with an eyebrow raised. Taking advantage of the fact I had stepped back a bit he walked into my apartment.

"You sure? Because if you are denying it you can't thats my thing." he said and I couldn't help but laugh a little.

"I'm sure. What made you think I'm sick?" I asked confused. Why was he even here.

"I was looking for you. I wanted to buy you lunch as a thank you. But I didn't find you then I ran into Phana and got worried you weren't with them. So I asked. Phana looked at me weird but told me you didn't come to class today and I was worried." I said.

"Oh." Was the only thing I could manage to say. He was worried? So much that he asked Phana about it? I was shocked.

"What's wrong with you? You are making me worried." He said grabbing my shoulders and inspecting me closely. I feel the heat returning to me cheeks.

"Nothing's wrong I was just feeling a little down today so I decided to stay home." I said and he just looked at me for a second.

"Why? I mean why are you feeling down?" He asked and I shrugged. I couldn't tell him it was because of my newfound feelings for him and how it feels hopeless.

"I just am." I said trying to smile but I could tell he didn't buy it.

"I don't like seeing you like that. How can I cheer you up?" he asked. I actually thought about it. What could make me feel better right now?

"Hug me." I said opening my arms. Without hesitation he closed the gap between us holding me close.

"You are really making me worry." He said. I just hid my face in his chest inhaling his scent. I didn't have an answer.

"You don't have to worry. I will be fine tomorrow." I said. You are here right now. But I probably won't be seeing much of you from now on I thought.

He spent the rest of the day at my apartment trying to cheer me up. Which I appreciated. He bought me my favorite snacks and food. Was always trying to make me laugh doing stupid things and cuddled with me a lot. It was great even if he was the reason I was sad in the first place. It wasn't his fault and he didn't even know it but still came to cheer me up. When he left I was feeling quite content so he succeded in a way.