Forth Beam short stories 2

Betrayal (part 7)

Forth's P.O.V.

I did everything I could to move on from this whole situation. I focused on my studies and my friends. I changed my usual bar for the weekends so we wouldn't run into each other. My friends and I also started hanging out at the beach or other places that were far from university. Just like that, Beam and the doc gang were all out of my life. Still, on the nights when I didn't have anything to do, I couldn't help but think of him and how he was doing. I kept my part as best as I could and didn't look for him. I thought I saw him once in the engineering food court a month ago, but I wasn't sure. That day, I went to the medical faculty to check on him. But as soon as I saw he was ok, I left. It's been almost six months since the day I found out Wayo was cheating on me. Last I knew of him, he was still with Phana, which is good, I guess. A part of me wishes that they had gotten together from the start so I would've had a chance to find out about Beam's feelings some other way. Then we wouldn't be in this mess. I wonder if he still has feelings or if he already moved on? My heart hurts just thinking about it. Enough time has passed now, right? Would he believe me if I tried again? Or has he moved on and wants nothing to do with me? I had so many questions, and none of the answers. I sighed, shutting down the book in front of me. It was no use I couldn't concentrate right now.

"Forth." Said Lam, looking from across the table.

"What?" I replied, opening the stupid book again and preparing for Lam's nagging.

"You can't continue this stupid game. Go see him." He said, sounding concerned, and I was surprised.

"What are you talking about?" I asked, and he glared at me.

"You avoiding Beam after everything happened. We get it he didn't want to see you. He was hurt and needed time. You gave him time. But it's been six months, and you've barely seen each other once or twice. But he's still on your mind. Try again!" He said, and I shook my head.

"It's not that easy, Lam. I can't just appear at his food court out of nowhere we know how that ended last time." I said, and he sighed.

"Look, you need to do something. At this point, you've been hurt a million times worse by giving space to Beam than when Wayo cheated. Isn't that enough for you to try again." I looked at Lam shocked. That hit me hard. But I've indeed been more hung up on Beam than I ever was with Wayo. "Look, the medical faculty is having an event today and tomorrow. They will have booths selling things to raise funds for a hospital. Beam will most likely be there. Go see him at least I can't stand your puppy dog face anymore." Said Lam, trying to sound annoyed, but I knew he was concerned.

"Fine, I'll go tomorrow," I said, trying to focus on the book again. But my mind went to Beam again. That was a good excuse to show up, and I can't wait to see him again. I shut the book and stood up. "On second thought, I will go right now." I said.

"Finally." Said Lam, but I was already on my way. Trying not to overthink, I made my way to the medical faculty. It was full of people from all over campus. Thank God I was on my bike, so I managed to park close by. I walked around searching for him. He always stands out in a crowd, so it shouldn't be too hard.

As soon as I saw him, I knew I was fucked. He was laughing at something a girl said. I instantly felt jealous. I couldn't help it. When he had feelings for me, all he did was hurt and be sad. Now he looks so happy. I'm beginning to question if I should approach him. But after not seeing him for so long, I couldn't just walk away. I waited for the girl to leave. He was arranging the food on the table when I walked up to him. It took him a second to look at me. But I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders when he looked up and smiled at me I did the same.

"Hi, Beam." I said.

"Hi, Forth." He chuckled. I looked at the table full of sweets. Mostly cookies and cakes.

"What do you recommend?" I asked. I just wanted to see him I didn't have a plan after that. I'll buy the whole table if that means a few more seconds with him. He thought about it before picking a cookie.

"This one is dark chocolate. I think you'd like it." He said, and I nodded.

"I'll take it." I said, getting my wallet out.

"It's on me." He said, handing me the cookie. I hesitated for a second before grabbing it.

"Thank you." I said, taking it and walking away. Shit why am I so stupid. I came all the way here just for that? But what was I supposed to do? Tell him to give me another chance while he had no way of leaving since he was there to sell cookies? That would have just made him mad at me. I sat down on my bike feeling defeated. At least I got to see him again even if it was for a minute. I should have thought this through more. I just wasted an opportunity in a two-minute interaction. I'm glad to see him doing ok after all. He looks good as always. As I was about to leave I noticed  Beam running out. I watched him for a second and he was looking around next to his car. He was blocked by two cars there's no way he will be able to leave. I watched him sigh and look at his phone.

"Need a ride?" I said loud enough for him to hear me. He was startled for a second before looking at me.

"You're still here." he said surprised.

"I was just about to leave but I can take you anywhere you want."

"Are you sure? You don't have anywhere to be?" He asked and I shook my head.

"No, I'm right where I need to be." I said and he rolled his eyes but smiled.

"Can you take me to the hotel? I need to be there but I can't get out." he said and I smiled.

"Of course. Hop in." I said giving him a helmet. He was carrying a bag so I took it from his hand and put it on the handle.

"I can carry that." He said and I shook my head no.

"It's easier this way. Get on." I said and he did hugging me tightly. I drove slower than usual not wanting to let him go. But eventually, we reached the hotel. He got off quickly.

"Thank you." he said handing me the helmet.

"You're welcome." I said watching his back disappear as he got further away. As I was about to leave I saw his bag on my handle. It was a brown paper bag. I don't know if he needs whatever is in here urgently. I better get this to him I thought parking my bike.