Forth Beam short stories 2

Betrayal (part 6)

Forth's P.O.V.

I decided to search for Beam today. I know it's not going to be easy. I have no lingering feelings for Wayo. But he is stubborn so we will see how it goes. I just know I have missed him so much this past couple of days. He has been constantly on my mind. I made my way to his faculty at lunchtime. It's the only place I can see him for sure since I don't think going back to the hotel would help. I saw him walking towards the food court and I couldn't help but smile. He sat down at a table and the first thing he did was open his laptop. I approached him sitting in front of him he was engrossed in his work not realizing I was there.

"Ignoring me? That's cold Beam." I joked. I watched him flinch then close his eyes for a second before looking at me coldly.

"I'm busy." He said turning his attention back to the computer again.

"Working?" I asked and he hummed in agreement not bothering to answer me with words. "What do you want to eat? My treat." I said and he shook his head no. "Beam." I said more seriously this time and he sighed.

"Nothing, I'm good." He said not looking at me. He was acting annoyed.

"I'm hungry tho and I don't like eating alone." He looked at me for a second with an eyebrow raised.

"Look for one of your friends." He said nonchalantly.

"Aren't you one of them?" I questioned mentally patting myself on the back for my quick thinking.

"Look for one that's not busy." He said and I laughed.

"Come on, you need to eat something anyway." I insisted and he sighed.

"Fine, just bring whatever." This time, he didn't look at me. I got up to find us something to eat. At least he's not shutting me out completely, I thought, walking to the first stall I saw. I ordered some food and drinks for the both of us. Thankfully, it didn't take long, and ten minutes later, I was walking back with our lunch in hand.

"Can you stop for a second to eat? Or should I just feed you?" I teased and he slammed the laptop shut. He was looking at me like he was angry but the blush on his cheeks contradicted him. He grabbed one of the plates for himself and stuffed his mouth without saying anything. I just laughed giving him his drink.

"What are you doing here Forth?" he asked trying to sound annoyed. Guess he regained his composure. I gulped the food down before answering him.

"I wanted to see you." I said holding eye contact. I knew my safest bet was being a 100% sincere or he would shut me out in a second. He rolled his eyes but a second later he looked away.

"Why?" he asked and I shrugged.

"I missed you." I said and he shook his head no.

"We are not doing this Forth." He said looking at me fiercely. Guess that was a wrong move he's mad.

"Why not? I want to give us a chance." I said and if looks could kill I'll be dead.

"No." He said crossing his arms around his chest. He's in defense mode.

"Why?" I pressed.

"Because I don't want to." He deadpanned.

"But you like me?" I asked looking at him like he was crazy.

"I don't care." he shrugged picking his laptop and walking away. I couldn't help but laugh.

"But isn't that the whole point? You have feelings for me so you care." I said walking fast to catch up to him.

"I told you to forget about it. So forget about it." He said stopping abruptly to glare at me.

"That's not how it works." I said calmly.

"Then make it work. Act like you didn't find out. Everything was fine when you didn't know." He said getting mad for real.

"Was it Beam? Because you were fighting with Phana before that fight on the hotel and I'm guessing it had something to do with me."

"Of course I was fighting with Phana because of you. He was helping Wayo cheat which I knew would hurt you! I did what I could I helped you see he was cheating so you will break up with him. What else do you want from me?" He said angrily.

"What about your hurt Beam? You have focused on everyone else except for yourself!" I said frustrated.

"Don't act like you care about me now because you found out I have feelings for you. Yes, I have them so what? I'm dealing with them on my own. You can take yourself out of the picture you never were on it." He said leaving me shocked for a second. He took that chance to walk away.

"I'm not saying I'm in love with you Beam. But something did shift that day. Can't we explore that? Is it so wrong?" I asked and he stopped on his track but didn't face me.

"No, even if you don't seem to think so I am protecting myself. I'm not your rebound from Wayo ok? You are just in your feelings. You got hurt by Phana and Wayo then found out about my feelings. I get it why you are confused but I'm not about to be dragged into this more than I already have. So stop looking for me Forth. Forget about me and everything that happened that weekend and move on. I want you to be happy. But don't come looking for me again." He said and I could tell he was serious.

"I don't see you as a rebound. I know it's bad timing. But I would never intentionally hurt you Beam." I said sad that he would think I'd do that to him.

"Tell me something Forth. Before all of this happened and Wayo came into our lives. Did you ever thought about me that way?" He asked softly turning around and coming closer.

"I've always found you attractive." I said but he shook his head no.

"But you never considered the possibility of us being together. I was just your friend that you found attractive. You have a good heart Forth is one of the reasons I ended up in this situation. I could easily see how you ended here. I helped you in one of your worst moments. We spent the weekend and got closer than we've ever been. Then you got betrayed by one of your closest friends and your then boyfriend and I was there. You found out about my feelings and saw me hurt about it. I could see how that would mess with your head hell it even messed with mine. But I don't want this not like this. So I don't know if it was bad timing or whatever it was but this ends here." He said firmly but I could see the pain in his eyes and I was the cause.

"Beam." I said softly.

"Let's not see each other for a while ok? We never saw each other much so it shouldn't be hard now that you and Phana aren't as close. Until then I really hope you are happy Forth." He said and I gulped to ease the tightness in my throat.

"If you ever need me please call me. Never hesitate I would drop everything for you. I understand everything you're saying and I'm sorry for the hurt I have caused you." I said and he gave me a soft smile.

"I promise I will. I will leave now." He said and I nodded letting him walk away.

I'm not sure if I agree with everything he said. But one things for certain. Right now it's not the time for us two. He will always think he's the rebound even if he isn't. I also shouldn't get into another relationship so quickly. I hope next time we meet things get better but right now we need space to move on from all of this mess. I shouldn't have come on so strongly after everything that happened.

A.N.

Don't look at me I'm hurt too. The plot gets out of my hands 90% of the time and this time not even I knew where I was taking this until I started writing. Anyway this is not overrr I'm not one for sad endings you guys already know that.