My Hero Academia: Hell is a Mess

Yeetus Deletus

Prompt: Izuku commits yeetus deletus.The reason why I am not using the S word is because I know that it can be triggering to some, so I am avoiding that to avoid triggering people who just want a glance. However, after this point, I will be saying it, so just a warning there.

I don't know why, but this is the most requested prompt that I have. It's concerning. I know suicidal Izuku is common and expected from him, but damn. I feel sorry for my homie.

This will also be focusing on Shouta afterwards. Some people wanted me to make the man suffer, and you definitely have the right idea for how.

Without further ado, let's do this ):

Warnings: Suicide, Disassociation, Denial.Basically, be careful when reading this chapter please.

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Quirkless teens have the highest suicide rate in Japan. Concerningly high to the point that it is expected for quirkless to just throw their lives away. That's why they are seen at the bottom. That's why nobody hires them since they are going to die soon anyway. That's why insurance companies charge so high for quirkless. That's why health professionals are allowed to turn away quirkless.

Being quirkless is setting you up for failure. It's like throwing a bird without wings out of a nest and expecting them to fly.

It's just not possible.

And you know what? I realize that now. I like to believe that I am making a difference, but one step forward leads two steps back. If anything, I am fucking shit up.

For example, quirkless can now be heroes, but they are technically slaves since they aren't paid by the government. This leads to people believing that quirkless are slaves rather than human beings. It's why there are now issues with people not paying quirkless at all.

Another failure on my part is becoming a hero myself. I know I said that I would become a hero just to spite everyone who said that quirkless can't be heroes, and that's still true. However, due to my abilities, quirkless are now expected to be able to do so many different things like me when that is simply not the case. They are expected to compensate for themselves when they are plenty already.

We're going to ignore the fact that the world believes that having a quirk means you have plenty of talent beyond quirkless.

Overall, I'm just fucking up over and over and over again, and I'm tired.

I'm so fucking tired.

I'm already fucked up in the head. I am well-aware of that. I have issues. There are times where I just drown in my own thoughts, so I tend to be louder to try and blast them out. I think most people around me are aware of that to at least some extent. This is especially true for Shouta, who is the first person to confront me that, if I am feeling suicidal, that I need to call him. That is not to say that he knows that I am. He said that out of concern for my jokes. He has no basis for that besides my jokes, and most people would push that idea aside, especially since I'm quirkless.

However, he isn't wrong with his assumption. I don't think he realizes how right he is.

How many times have I tried to get alcohol poisoning to kill myself?

How many times have I searched online for the most desirable way to end my life?

How many times was I so close, yet something would fuck up to stop me?

So many times. So many fucking times.

Maybe I sound dramatic, but when I have so many people that hate me including myself, it's suffocating.