aerie (bakugo katsuki x oc)

chapter 53: one too many

Ever since Shiggy had to pry me off of him this morning, I've felt a little down.

   When me and Shiggy are together, I feel whole. I feel confident, valued, loved. But as soon as he's gone, everything starts to crumble. I start to feel like I did when I spent all those years alone. I feel like a low-life, self-centered criminal, without any real aspirations besides getting a thrill here and there by doing something illegal. I start to realize that I'm just a villain that cares for nothing and no one besides my lover and his dreams. Which is great and all, I'm glad I have so much love and devotion to give to the person that I adore so much. But without him... without my Shiggy here to experience it, am I really worth anything at all?

   I kick rocks down my commute to UA. The stupid school that's taken me from my comfortable spot by my boyfriend's side. I start to wonder if it's even worth it, to be apart from my rock just for a little project that I don't even care about.

   But as soon as I walk in the doors of the school, like a switch has flipped, everything changes. My feelings suddenly go from lonely and dejected to excited and alive. When Kiri catches up to me ranting and raving about the anime he's watching, when Katsuki shoots me a dirty look when I walk in the classroom, when Aizawa gets onto me for doodling in my notebook instead of paying attention in English class, I feel like I'm a part of something. Instead of putting all of my energy into collecting information, I put it into getting in character. When I'm here at this school, I'm no longer Aerie the supervillain. I'm Kaiya Miyasaki, my quirk is glitch, and I'm training to be a hero. I look forward to training and interacting with my classmates, just as if I was one of them. I absolutely love showing off to the others, as well as bettering my fighting skills and quirk. This is the most fun I've had in years, and sometimes I forget the reason I'm even here in the first place.

When Aizawa announces the sports festival, the first thing that runs across my mind isn't the opportunities I have as a villain, it's excitement of getting to compete alongside my peers.

And to be honest, I'm starting to get confused as to where to draw the line. I know getting in character will help me with lying, and staying undercover is top priority. But I don't think I was supposed to get to the point where I actually enjoy going to this school. I don't think I was supposed to actually care about the friends that I've made, or respect the teachers I learn from. That's actually the scary part. I know I'm supposed to hate All Might, I mean my boyfriends whole objective is to kill the guy. But for some reason, as long as I'm within these walls, I find him kinda... cool.

   And don't even get me started on Katsuki. I don't know what exactly it is about him that mesmerizes me so much, but watching him spit in the face of the status quo, insult, bully, and yell his way to to top, it's invigorating to this character of mine. Watching him tell the group of students huddled at the door that he's gonna win no matter what, it has me absolutely enthralled.

   "Wait, don't leave yet," I say to Kiri, "I gotta do something real quick." I push past the people that are still gathered at the door, making my way into the hall. "Wait up, kittykat!" I call as I catch up to the man of the hour that has me in absolute awe. I don't know if it's Aerie or Kai that admires his confidence so much, but I just can't resist the urge to experience it up close.

   "Oh my god," he groans, "Stop following me!"

   "No way!" I say as I skip up next to him. "You're just such a joy to be around, I'd miss you too much," I say with a smile. I'm sure he thinks I'm being sarcastic, but I'm dead serious. A day at UA without watching Katsuki be himself is a day wasted.

   He rolls his eyes. "You're annoying," he says.

   "Well, I just wanted to tell you that I'm gonna kick your ass at the sports festival," I tease, satisfying my uncontrollable urge to try and get a reaction from the guy. "You may have all these guys intimidated, But I know that I'm stronger than you. I've proved it, actually."