chapter 116: enough

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aerie

   I awaken in Katsuki's lap like I do every morning, and smile softly at him. "Morning," I say.

   "Morning, princess," he says, sounding exhausted as ever. "Any dreams?" he asks.

   "No," I sigh.

   He tucks a piece of hair behind my ear. "I don't know how much longer I can take this," he says, solemnly.

   "Really?" I say, with a smirk. "I can do this forever if I get to wake up to this every day."

   "I can't."

   I tilt my head, with a longing smile. "Where do you want to go?" I ask, changing the subject to something I'd actually like to talk about.

   "What?"

   "When we get out of here. The Maldives? Or did you want to go to Hawaii again?"

   He blows air out of his nose. "I don't care where we go, as long as I get to see you every day."

   I chuckle, shaking my head. "You're so gay."

   "Shut up," he mutters.

   I gaze up at him, suddenly beginning to feel that sickening feeling of guilt creep in.

   I see the pain in his eyes, and I know there's no way I can deny that it's all my fault. I walked into his life, lied to him about everything, left him, died, and now I've condemned him to a lifetime of torture. There's no way I can see this possibly ending well for him. Either he's tortured forever, or he's let go, and I die. He'll never be the same after that, and I only have myself to blame for ruining his life like this.

"I'm sorry," I whisper.

   "For what?"

   "For dragging you into this."

   He sighs. "Stop saying that. This is where I belong."

I raise an eyebrow. "In this place?" I say, although I know that's not what he means.

   "With you."

   He looks at me so warmly, so lovingly, and I find myself wanting to smile again.

   Although I blame myself for his constant suffering, it's still impossible for me to feel sad when he looks at me like that. I know I've caused him so much pain, but I can't say that I wouldn't do it all over again. I know it didn't end well for either of us, but, and even if everything was only okay just for a moment, I now know what it's like to be truly loved by someone. That's something that I could have gone my whole life without, and I'm thankful every day that I got to experience it.

   As soon as I allow the corners of my mouth to turn up, the door swings open, and in walks the goons.

   I roll my eyes at the sight of them. "Oh, god..." I groan.

   "Get up," the bigger one bellows.

   "Make me," I say, in a mocking tone.

   He wastes no time walking over to us and dragging me to my feet by my hair, causing Katsuki to scream in protest.

   "Don't fucking touch her!" he screams. The smaller one starts over to Katsuki, and he aims his palms at the bastard. "Get the hell away from me!" he shouts, but the goon doesn't look the least bit afraid.

   Even though he's the smaller of the two, the one who pins Katsuki's arms behind his back is still twice the size of him, and Kats has no chance of wiggling free from his grasp, no matter how hard he tries.

The big one grabs ahold of my arm, and I roll my eyes. "What do you assholes want?" I groan, annoyed that they interrupted my favorite part of the day.

"We're switching tactics," says the most annoying disembodied voice ever to exist.

"What is it, this time?" I sigh, slightly shaking my arm as if that could possibly shake the fat bastard off me.

"Don't you worry," he says, with a sly smile creeping onto his face as he squeezes my arm even tighter. "You'll like this."

Suddenly, I get a pit in my stomach. I start to think about what happened the last time two goons came in and said some shit like that, and I start to feel sick.

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Katsuki says. I can tell he's trying to be intimidating, but I can hear the fear in his voice.

"You..." the small one says to Katsuki, with a creepy smile to match the other guy's. "Not so much."

"Yeah," says the other guy. "Watching's no fun."

Katsuki's eyes widen in horror. "No..." he says, looking more afraid than I've ever seen him. "No!" he screams.

This is the part that I'd usually console him, but the sense of terror is taking me over, and I can't bring myself to say a word.

"Alright," says the big one, smiling at me even wider. "Let's have some fun."

I try to swallow the lump in my throat, but the horror of this situation is too much for me. Every possibility of the hell about to be bestowed on me flashes through my mind, and I begin to cower in fear. "No," I say softly, shaking my head. "Please, don't."

"Okay," Katsuki says, frantically, "Okay! I give up! You got me, okay?! I'll do whatever the hell it is you want, just leave her alone!"

"Katsuki, no!" I cry.

"Wonderful."

The goons suddenly let go of us, and the big one sighs. "Just when things were about to get good."

"Fuck you, you fucking perv," I spit, then turn to Katsuki. "Kats, listen to me. You can't give up. God knows what they'll do to me when you leave."

He shakes his head, still with that look of fear in his eyes. "No. No, I can't take it. I'd never be able to live with myself."

"Katsuki, you can't leave me!" I cry. "I can't do this alone!"

"I'll find you, okay?!" he shouts, then takes a breath to calm himself. "I'll find a way to save you, but I can't fucking do this anymore. I can't watch them hurt you, it would kill me."

"Katsuki, if you listen to them, they'll fucking kill me! I don't want them to hurt me anymore either, but I don't want to die!" I cry, then swallow hard to try to stop myself from breaking down into sobs. "We'll make it through this, okay?" I say, voice wavering even though I've calmed myself down to a much softer desperate plead. "We have to stay strong."

Katsuki shakes his head, tears welling up in his eyes. "I'm sorry, princess," he says, in a half whisper as he looks at me with a devastated expression. "I just can't."

I open my mouth to continue to beg him to stay, but then, I start to hear something in the distance.

I look up at the ceiling, trying to decipher the soft tapping sound so far away. "What is that?" I say, softly.

Katsuki looks at me with wide eyes. "Gunshots," he says, suddenly with his devastated expression turning to half an amazed smile.

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