aerie (bakugo katsuki x oc)

chapter 65: misery loves company

   After making the long commute back to my apartment, I walk in the door, tossing my keys on the couch. And when I turn on the light, spotting the rotting takeout that I could never bring myself to throw out, I get a sick feeling as I'm reminded that the headspace I've been in is make believe, and I have to face everything that's taken place this last week.

   The gaping hole in my chest opens up, and tears rush to my eyes immediately.

   Oh, god. What am I thinking? Pretending to be Kai again, pretending to like some wannabe hero so the reality of my life doesn't crush me under its weight? Pathetic.

   I amble to the bedroom and crawl under my covers, curling into a ball before pulling out my phone to stare at my empty lockscreen, longing for a notification from the very person that ripped my heart out.

   Maybe he'll realize he's made a mistake and call me, begging for my forgiveness.

Maybe he'll send a paragraph, apologizing, asking me to come home.

Maybe he'll send a text, saying he's sorry.

Maybe... maybe he'll text me.

Maybe he'll text me a picture of them together to rub it in my face.

Maybe he'll text me saying that I'm the worst thing to ever happen to him, and that he hopes that I die alone.

Maybe he'll... maybe he'll text me.

   After spending what seems like hours debating on whether or not it's a good idea, I open my phone, and go to our conversation. I take a deep breath, and start to type.

   -fuck you. i fucking hate you. you're the most fucked up person ive ever met amd i hope i never see you again. i hope you're fucking happy. you ripped my heart into shreds and i will never be able to love you again after what you did to me. i hope that fucking skank makes you happier than i could. i hate you. i hate everything about your sick personality and i hope you fuckimg die.

   I take a moment, and delete what I've typed. I take another breath, and start again.

  -how could you, shiggy? ive given you everything. ive devoted my life to you, and this is the thanks i get? how could you do this to me? why? why this? out of everything you could have done to hurt me, you choose the most devastating possible route to

   I delete it again, and try one more time.

   -hey

   And after hovering over the button for 5 minutes, I finally hit send.

   But after a few seconds, the message still hasn't delivered.

   No... You can't be serious... Did he... Block me?!

I quickly sit up, heart racing. Before I can think twice, I call him, just to be sure. And when it rings twice, then goes straight to voicemail, it becomes clear to me the gravity of the situation here. I start to feel even sicker.

That's it. It's over. He found someone else, and now he wants nothing to do with me. God, how could I be so stupid? Of course he doesn't want me anymore after what I did. This is all my fault. We're over, and it's all because of me.

I launch my phone across the room, and it slams against the wall before falling to the ground. I grasp my shirt over my heart as I feel the life being sucked out of my chest. Tears well up in my eyes and begin to run down my cheeks, but I don't allow myself to break down into sobs. I just sit, chest emptying, tears flowing out of my eyes all the way down into my shirt.

   What the fuck am I supposed to do now?

After hours of sitting, trying to get ahold of my emotions, I have no luck. The pain refuses to subside, the tears refuse to stop. I burrow under the covers, pulling my blanket tightly over my head to try and hide from the cruel world outside. I squeeze my eyes shut, and try my damndest to come up with a happy thought.

After a moment, the pain dwindles. My guilt-ridden thoughts of heartbreak and sorrow slowly disappear as I focus on the one thing that's gotten me through this so far.

Katsuki Bakugo.

   What an exciting project, he is. Getting into the mind of someone as difficult as him and coming out on top is an adventure in itself.

   And just like that, I have an idea.

  If I'm able to do it... if I can make Bakugo fall for me... could that be enough to make Shiggy want me again? Could he handle me seeming happy with someone else, or will he put a stop to it? I can't imagine the Shiggy I know standing idly by as I move on, especially with someone as insulting as the wannabe hero he's already jealous of.

   Suddenly, the desire for Bakugo becomes more than a Kai thing.

~

   I spend the next couple of days in Kai mode, feeling happy-go-lucky, doing everything in my power to get closer to Bakugo. I choose the same hero agency for internship as him to get us some alone time, which backfires after I realize how treacherous internship with Best Jeanist actually is. But, alas, the train ride back home does give me the perfect opportunity to ask about the amusement park.

"Hey!" I say with a smile, "I've been meaning to ask you."

"What's up?" Katsuki says, in a cool-guy tone.

"I have 2 tickets to the amusement park, did you wanna come with me?"

He furrows his brow. "Amusement park? Where?"

"It's about an hour train ride away. Please come! It'd be so fun!"

He narrows his eyes. "Why don't you ask Kirishima?"

I sigh.

Alright, do I want to make him feel special, or make him jealous? I mean, I wouldn't want to scare him off by so blatantly asking him out on a date. Plus, if he said no, it'd be a huge blow to my ego.

   Jealous it is.

"I already asked him, he can't go," I lie, causing a slight stomachache.

"I don't want to go," he says, looking mildly ticked off at this point.

Okay, maybe jealously was not the way to go after all.

"C'mon, please?" I ask, sweetly. "They have a new rollercoaster that's supposed to be insane!"

"Nah."

Alright, time to change tactics.

"Oh, I get it," I say with a smirk, "You're scared of rollercoasters."

"Not gonna work, glitch girl."

That's not working either? Damn. Alright, I guess I'm left with no choice, I've got to double down on the jealousy angle. Hm... who could be worse than Kirishima...

"You are," I say, rolling my eyes. "But it's okay. Maybe I can get Denki to come with me."

His face goes from annoyed to angry in an instant. "You would take that idiot?!" he says, slightly raising his voice.

"If no one else wanted to come with me!" I say, crossing my arms. "These tickets were a gift, I'm not gonna waste them."

He rolls his eyes. "Fine. I'll go."

I gasp excitedly. "Really?!"

"Don't make me change my mind."

Perfect. Everything's in place for the takedown. All that's left is to make the guy fall in love with me. Should be simple enough, right?