I woke up with my Mom hugging me.
Nakatulugan ko pala ang pag-iyak.
But namuo nanaman ang mga luha ko ng makita ang mga ito na nakapatong sa table ko.
I slowly removed my mom's arm to me so I can't wake her up.
I decided to go downstairs.
Simon and Vinny saw me even Dad.
"Son"
"Kuya"malungkot na usal nila but I only smiled at them a bit.
"Kuya tama na"pigil ni Vinny at inagaw ang bote ng alak sa akin.
"Ano ba Vinny, pabayaan niyo ko!"
"Kuya!"
"Please..........kahit ngayon lang"pagmamakaawa ko as my tears started to flow.............again.
"Wala akong kwenta hahaha..........I never knew na may sakit siya........ I never even asked her. Napakawalang kwenta ko talaga..........Damn it Sandro!F*ck!"
I punched the table hard as f*ck!
"Kuya tama na! look at your hands it's bleeding!"Simon said.
I saw my hands that was covered with blood but I can't feel the pain just like the pain I feel in my heart.
"Where is she?"I suddenly asked.
"We don't know Kuya, Hinatid lang ni Karen kanina yung package but she never said anything"Simon answered.
"Let's go to Karen"I said and started to walked leaving them but they pulled me.
"Gabi na, let's just go tomorrow"Vinny said.
"No, she needs me. Kaya punta na tayo don. Okay, Tara na"pagmamakaawa ko but still di parin sila gumagalaw sa kinatatayuan nila.
"Son gabi na.........let's just visit her tomorrow okay, do you want her to see you like a messed"Dad said as he pointed me, my hands.
Just like what Dad said,bukas nalang kami pupunta.
Ako lang ngayon mag-isa sa room. They wanted to accompany me but I refused.
I want to be alone..........
I picked the journal as I continue to read it.
Page 16
Hey Sandro
I feel happy today! Kasi marami ng natupad sa bucket list ko. And hoping madagdagan pa dahil nagyaya silang magbakasyon sa Ilocos Norte kaya gorang gora ako kahit may sakit hahha. Mukhang tinutulungan ako ng tadhana ah gusto na ata akong kunin char hahha.
Kaya hintayin mo ko Mr. Sandro dahil paparatimg nako dyan. Love you Mahal
Love Sophia
Thanks for coming all the way here Mahal. I love you.....
Page 19
Hey Sandro
Simon invited us to go there sa house niyo kasi may party for Vinny. I'm so excited kasi finally makikita na kita kaso bigla namang nanghina tong katawan ko.
Maybe next time nalang mahal, I just hope may next time pa.....
Love Sophia
There will be next time Mahal, I promise..........We will both figth for that, okay.
Page 21
Hey Sandro
Alam mo ba na ang saya saya ko kasi pareho pala tayo ng nararamdaman,like for REAL!!!!!.
I think I can die happy na, charr lang hahahah.
Love Sophia
I'm happy too that you like me also but No, you can't die, No one will die.
Page 22
Hey Sandro
Ano ka ba naman Mahal pinapakilig mo naman ako eh hahaha. Di pa nga tayo pero naka-apat ka ng kiss sa akin. Grabe ka hahahah. But I love it hahahaha.
I never thought na grabe ka palang magselos ah.Di ako nainform but it's okay ang cute mo ngang magselos eh hahaha.
Love Sophia
Your lips are irresistable kasi eh hahaha. Don't worry I'll make sure to broadcast that you're mine so they'll know.
Page 23
Hey Sandro
Sabi ko ilang araw lang ako dito sa Pampanga pero wala eh biglang sumumpong tong sakit ko and mas lalong lumala.Gustong gusto kong sabihin sayo but ayokong masaktan ka. I already agreed to try the treatment in America and I'm hoping that it can help to cure my illness.
Love Sophia
Is this the reason why you left me?
You should've have told me, so I'll be at your side fighting for your life.
Page 25
Hey Sandro
We're here in Baguio na, and I'm happy that I spend my days with you. I hope this days won't end,cause I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
Oh and thank you cause I'm almost done na sa bucket list ko!!!!Yiehh hahahaha, isa nalang and it will complete.Here oh...
Bucket List
√Island hopping with the fam
√Learn how to drive a car.
√Finishing the story I wrote
√Going to Ilocos Norte
√Vacation with friends
√Picture with Sandro Marcos
√Beach Date with the person I love
√Watching movie with the person I love
Watching the sunset
Love Sophia
I promise this won't end Mahal and we're going to make your bucket list do come true so we can make another one for the both of us.
Page 26
Hey Sandro
I'm sorry for leaving you without saying goodbye. I just can't...........
I love you Sandro, I love you, Mahal.
Love Sophia
It's okay Mahal, I love you too
Page 27
Hey Sandro
I saw you on the news,nangagayayat kana. You should take care of yourself, wala ako dyan para alagaan ka.Kaya please take care.
Love Sophia
Then bumalik kana...........I need you.......
