Howl of Sins

Chapter 59

Decebels POV

I took off on my bike and drove around for several hours until it got dark. I stumbled upon a what looks to be abandoned road that just drives straight into the middle of the thick Alaskan forest. I decided to drive down it a little bit and parked on the side of the road. Sitting on a fallen tree that was laying on the ground, I pulled out the two bottles of moonshine that I got from the academy and decided to crack one open. I called Kiara when I left the academy and told her about the huge fight with Hunter and that we were no longer on speaking terms. I told her I needed to go out for a drive and clear my head for a little while. I told her to not wait up for me and to make sure that she gets good sleep before classes start. Austin, David's Beta tried calling me to tell me I was due for a dose of wolfsbane. I don't fucking care about that anymore. Fuck that shit. The moonshine I drank, I could sense the darkness inside me surrounding. Wrapping around me in an embrace.

I started to think about all the things that I have learned the past two days. I'm going to be a father and the dude I thought was suppose to be my brother and always had my back, betrayed me. Who knows what else he told Morgan, or for that matter David. All I know is that I'm caught in something I cant control anymore. I don't want the plan to get back to Kiara or anyone for that matter. It wont matter that I don't plan to do anything about it anymore, the only thing that's going to matter is I'm no different than Jackson. And the fact that in the beginning I was okay with using Kiara as a pawn to get "revenge" for something that isn't something to get revenge back for. As much as it pissed me off, Hunter was right. I am my families disappointment and if word gets out, I'll be a disappointment in the family that I'm mated into. Hunter knew that would push something inside me, but as much as I was pissed, I shouldn't have through in the fact that he's really an orphan. Marianna found Hunter when he was 6 out in the woods, so upset and for a long time was unable to get any words out. Me being an only child, another boy my age being brought up with me, it brought us closer than the bond that I had with my mother. But who's to say if we even have a mother and son bond. If I'm being honest, I think Marianna loved Hunter more like a son and treated me horribly, making sure to fill my head with more darkness than I already have clouding my vision. I was always a reminder to her of Jackson, and the fact that he was gone, killed her inside to be able to look at me. Which now, it makes sense that she wants me to fulfill what he originally wanted. It was never what was in my best interest, or what I wanted. And for that, I had somewhat of a resentment towards Hunter. But that doesn't mean I never considered him my brother.

With all these thoughts running through my head going 100 miles an hour, I didn't notice that I already drank both jars of moonshine and I sat here for an hour already. It started to get foggy outside and I could feel the fire not being extinguished. My eyes went back and forth from glowing red, to attempting to turn into Aeshmas eyes. I need to head back to Kiara, maybe she can help try to keep me calm. I jumped on my bike and made it to the main tar road that was miles long from the Academy. It was pitch black out, only being able to see my headlight illuminating the road in front of me.

"Its time." I felt a voice call out in my head.

After the voice spoke in my head, I felt my chest start to clench up in pain, like a fist stabbed through my chest and clenched my beating fist, pulling me. Something is calling to me. The pain in my chest got so bad that I started to lose control of my motorcycle, and it caused me to fly off it and skid on the tar. Road rash all over the right side of my face, down my arm, and a little on my side.

"Fuck!" I groaned in pain, rolling on my back.

I could feel the wind knocked out of me and I tried to focus on getting my breath back. I laid on the road for a few minutes before I caught my breath enough to walk to where my motorcycle landed, and thankfully enough it was only a few scratches to the bike. Other than that it still started right up. I got on my bike and headed back to the Academy. Trying to follow the feeling of something dragging me.