Against The Waves (Silvero Series #01)

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Chapter 22: I'm all yours

I woke up early the next day because I decided to go to the gym with Solana. I haven't been there for a long time. I need it for my body's health.

Wala akong ginawa kahapon maliban sa pakikipag usap kay Hades sa kabilang linya. He's telling me everything happened to him after he got there. I was just smiling and listening to his stories.

I wore my black sports bra and black leggings. Suot ko rin ang white Nike shoes ko. My hair is in a ponytail and it will dance every time I move.

It's still six in the morning. Tulog pa ang iba but Lola Amelia is now awake. She's in the kitchen, watching the maids preparing our breakfast.

Nakapag paalam na rin naman kami sa kaniya. Babalik rin naman kami agad.

Si Kuya Lando ang nag hatid sa aming dalawa ni Solana sa pinakamalapit na gym na madalas kong puntahan. May sariling gym naman ang mansyon na ito pero syempre iba pa rin yung pakiramdam na may makakasabay kang mag ehersisyo.

Dahil maaga pa naman ay wala pang masyadong mga sasakyan sa labas kaya nakarating agad kami doon.

I yawned as we entered the gym. May mga ilang tao na sa loob at ang ilan ay kasama sa zumba habang sa kabila pang kwarto ay ang mga nag yoyoga.

I miss Yoga too. Kapag may matira pang oras mamaya ay sasali ako sa kanila.

Ibinaba na ni Solana ang duffel bag na dala niya sa bench na naroon kaya ganoon na lang din ang ginawa ko. Saglit kaming nag handa bago niya ako yayain na mag stretching muna.

I have my own routine so I let her do her stretching routine.

Kahit papaano ay kampante na ako sa Solana na nakakasama namin ngayon. She's not totally happy, I know that. Pero nagagawa niya pa ring makipag sabayan sa amin. I'm so proud of her dahil bawat araw na lumilipas ay nasasaksihan ko ang efforts na ginagawa niya para sa sarili niya.

Just to get over with someone who doesn't give a fuck about her existence.

Hindi naman iyon magiging madali para sa kaniya dahil mahal niya ang lalaking 'yon.

It's not easy and It hurts. Just sitting in the corner of your bed, unable to sleep and overthinking whatever the hell is wrong with you and why that person you want didn't choose you, blaming yourself because you can't afford the love you want to feel. 

I know it's fucking hard for her but she's still trying her best to heal her own wounds because she's tired of depending on others.

Tayo lang naman talaga ang pwedeng makakagamot sa sarili nating mga sugat. Hindi natin iyon pwedeng i-asa sa iba dahil walang ibang makakagawa noon kundi tayo rin mismo.

In the end, no one will come to save you. You have to get up by your own. Sarili mo pa rin ang aasahan mo. Sarili mo lang ang pagkakatiwalaan mo dahil kahit na baliktarin mo pa ang mundo, ang tangging magiging kakampi at karamay mo lang ay ang sarili mo.

You only have yourself.

Ayokong magaya sa akin si Solana noon. After my first heartbreak with Radge.

I couldn't heal because I kept pretending I wasn't hurt. I kept telling people that was fine but on the inside, the pain was killing me gently. Masakit dahil kahit kailan ay hindi naman naging ako. He never chooses me. It was an insult to me so I kept telling them that it was just one of my experiences.