Time waits for no one

The last years

OVER THE FEW YEARS...

The next few years went by quick... too quick for my liking. Although there were things to look forward to, there was the one thing we all dreaded- Freddie's sickness. Not long after Live Aid, the public found out about Freddie.

That made life harder on Freddie, Jim, and their privacy in general. All I wanted to do was shelter them both from it, but I knew there was no way.

We all grew closer as the years went on. It was the small things, such as the gatherings at each of our houses every once in a while... the walks we'd all go on... The big trips, the childish sleepovers, everything mattered. We all just valued our time with him.

James, Mileena, and our third child, Franklin, who was born 2 years after the twins truly loves him. Freddie's truly an amazing Godfather, I just wish he could become an actual father. He'd be fantastic at it.

The It's currently September of 1991, and Freddie isn't doing too well... It hurts him just to get out of bed, and I don't know how much longer he can hold on, or how much longer he wants to hold on.

I know he's hurting, and there's a part of me that wants his suffering to just...end.

But there's a bigger part of me that refuses to let go. He can't leave us. He can't leave me.

I pray every day, and wish from the bottom of my heart that God just takes his illness away, but I know there's no way. There's nothing I could do about it, but comfort him in his final years.

I feel like this is what Freddie wanted from the beginning. I feel like he knew he'd go out any way other than a natural death, and he was fine with it.

He never liked the idea of growing old. Or as he calls it, wearing out.

He left his mark on this Earth, many ways than once, and he's satisfied.

You just never realize how fast time goes by. Time. A funny thing that we all try to avoid at least one time in life...

Freddie always told me, yet I never really understood until now...

Time waits for no one