renjun strolled through the familiar hallways nervously as the soft aureate evening light shone on his complexion, his fingers trembling as he kept on looking at the almost never-ending abyss of identical rooms. glancing at a door that had been scratched up badly and the nearby window where it was evident that subtle stains of coffee is seen on the curtains.
reaching out, renjun slowly twisted the handle and let the door swing back slowly, trying to make as minimum noise as possible. he leaned in, scanning the dorms for the younger, but was only greeted in pure, deafening silence, and even worse, there was no sign of him anywhere.
waving it off as he closed the door, thinking that he was in his room sleeping, renjun heaved a sigh as he flopped on the couch, a slight sliver of happiness bubbling up inside him as he was glad that jaemin still has a little bit of trust in him that he thought was so prone to break, that he let him stay in his dorms to take care of jisung for almost a whole month, while he was always in his dorms, alone and silent...
wait, jisung's in his room, silent and alone...?
anxiety bubbled up inside of renjun as intrusive thoughts piled up over each other in his mind, as he was constantly reminded of the fact that jisung literally tried to kill himself in the dorms. his hands trembling, he ran to jisung's bedroom and grabbed the handle, almost breaking it apart as he kicked open the door...and he instantly regretted it.
jisung was laying on the bed, spreadeagled as he leaned on the headboard, his lamppost-like frame taking over the whole mattress. one of his legs plopped down on the floor as he let out low gasps and groans, running his hand up and down his member— bigger than he expected, might renjun add, twitching his head haphazardly. his clothes were a scattered mess on the floor, and much to renjun's dismay, he was not covered in the mess of blankets he was currently situated in.
renjun felt like his frame freeze instantly as he scarred his eyes at the sight in front of him although he was not supposed to be surprised...if it were happening when jisung's and chenle's relationship was still going on. he tried to let out a scream, but nothing came out of his seemingly powerful vocal cords other than a small squeak.
fortunately that was enough for jisung to open his eyes and jolt his head up, and immediately flinch in complete terror as he hid in the blankets. "what the absolute fuck is wrong with you, hyung?! couldn't you knock for fuck's sake?" his muffled voice yelled out from the blanket.
renjun's frame was still frozen in place until he was figuratively thawed a mere moment later. flinching out of his trance. almost immediately, he tried to regain his voice as he started to slur out his apologies. "i-i didn't mean it...! i didn't want you to be alone because of...that incident, but i didn't think you were doing this!"
that was probably the first time he actually articulated a sentence in 2 months with no stutter whatsoever.
the younger fell silent for a moment before the blanket decided to pull itself up. he sighed, frustration still lacing his voice. "hyung..." he started. "can you please leave my room for a damn moment please? i..."
jisung trailed off as he heard renjun hum a yes and close the door, leaving him alone.
heaving a sigh in half-relief as renjun leaned his head on the door, groaning at himself for being so stupid. almost immediately, he jolted his head up as he heard groans and raspy gasps coming from the forbidden side of the door.
"bitch...w-when will you...ever come back...fuck!" jisung's muffled voice cut himself in between his slurred out speech, followed by an angry sigh and swooshes of clothes, insinuating to renjun that he might have taken care of...his little problem. shaking his head vigorously as he sighed, renjun sternly walked to the drawing room and flopped on to the couch, trying to forget such a thing actually happened.
a few relieving minutes passed by until jisung awkwardly walked inside the room, wearing a hoodie and sweatpants that pretty much covered him up like a blanket, maybe a bit too much. his hands were sweater paws, his fingers trembling as he took a seat opposite to him, the tension so thick in the air that one could cut it with a knife.
it was upto renjun to save the situation now. "uh...so i'll just...leave since you're clearly busy..." he spoke out as he stood up, about to leave after witnessing the scarring incident in 4k high-definition. trying not to make eye contact with jisung, he tried to reach out for the door.
"wait!" jisung immediately caught his wrist, rendering him immobile, although neither of them said anything for a few moment until jisung broke the ice, but not in the way the older expected.
renjun felt arms wrapping around his waist as jisung embraced him tight, not wanting to let go.
"i'm...so sorry for always...being this angry towards you...i was angry at myself...i'm really sorry..." jisung stammered in a voice so low that it was barely audible to renjun, but it was clear on what he was talking about as he heard sniffles from the younger, even though it was clearly his fault in the first place.
heaving a heavy breath, renjun explained in his faltering voice, trying not to break down any moment soon. "look...it is my fault...and you shouldn't be blaming yourself for that. honestly...i deserve being shunned anyways...i tore your relationship apart."
jisung fell silent for a moment as his grip on the older loosened, before letting him go and flopping down on the couch, his expression severe and solemn. "there's...more than that..."
renjun turned back as he raised an eyebrow at jisung as he stood still, waiting for him to speak out what exactly happened. "what do you mean...? did something...else happen...?"
"hyung, he's...pregnant with my child...and i couldn't even be there for him..." jisung sighed as he choked his words out. "h-he's blaming himself...for everything i did...h-he thinks i'm...being burdened because of my studies...b-but...little did he know...i-i dropped...out..."
"a-and...h-he's...with...a-another m-man..."
jisung couldn't help but stammer badly as he stated the last sentence, much to renjun's horror.
a/n: I CANNOT WITH CANDY'S MV TEASER SDFJKSDFJS-
jisung and jaemin looked so adorable in it 😭😭
...yes, ik this chapter was weird af, i gave a promise to my friend cae that i'll make the 69th chapter smut, but i didn't know how to piece together smut...in such a depressing part of the plot, hence i made crack and angst out of it ;-;
also if anyone was stalking me on discord, no i wasn't listening to odo for 3 days straight, stfu <3
(i took way too long on this, i was stalling with this chapter for 4 days straight, i didn't have the time, sorry </3)
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