her? ⇢ chensung ✔

achtunddreißig

the next day dawned and jisung was still very melancholic from the previous day's incidents.

he heard slight snores and a small weight on his body, along with the feeling of someone nuzzling his neck. he opened his eyes to see chenle clinging on to him like his life depended on it, deep asleep.

jisung beamed a sad smile at his boyfriend as he gently squirmed himself out of his grasp, trying his level best to not wake the older. his eyes caught a glance of the blade dripping with blood nearby, and he feverishly kept it inside his bag, sighing in relief that chenle did not see it when he went inside his room.

jisung was about to walk out the doorway when he heard small gasps and breathy whimpers of discomfort coming from his bed. chenle was squirming about in his bed; the sudden lack of his warmth was more than enough to wake him up.

jisung decided to ignore that as he leaned outside, ready to start another gruelling disappointment of a day—

"ji...? you're awake...?"

chenle's voice made him turn back, to see his adorable self cuddled up in the blanket, rubbing his eyes with his tiny hands and scrunching his nose like a rabbit. "i just woke up. classes will start in an hour, we both slept late," jisung spoke in a voice abnormally stoic.

"there's an hour, right? so, cuddle with me," chenle spoke out firmly much to jisung's confusion.

"but i need-"

"no buts. either you're going to cuddle with me or you're sleeping on the couch tonight," chenle retorted, further confusing him.

nevertheless, jisung decided to heed his orders and slumped on to the bed, expecting chenle to just bury his face on to his neck and fall asleep once again.

but what jisung didn't expect was chenle to flip their positions now that he's hovering over him, beaming at him innocently. before he could get a hold of what is happening, chenle smashed his lips to his, while straddling him in the process.

chenle broke the kiss as he started to sniffle, worried sick for the younger and his eccentric shenanigans. "tell me if there is anything bothering you...alright...? i don't want you to hide it from me and i don't want you to hurt yourself..."

jisung curled his lips to a wobbly, weak smile, knowing clearly that chenle is too late and he is already heading that way. he wrapped his hands around the older's waist, his grip abnormally weak. "lele...you don't have to worry about me...i was just a bit disappointed with my grades...i promise i won't do that again!"

"i was worried sick about you, dumbass! you have no clue on how long i was waiting for you to come out, praying that you didn't do anything stupid! how can i not worry about you..." chenle snapped, tears coming out of his eyes. "but...at least you're fine...that's all i needed to know..."

and with that said, chenle launched himself on to jisung, hugging him so tight that jisung felt like he was almost suffocating. a smile came on his lips on its own, seeking comfort in chenle's embrace.

"i seriously don't deserve him..." jisung thought as he embraced him back.

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"honestly, i'm very disappointed in you. i thought you were such a bright student, and look how much you scored in high school!"

"i'm sorry, mr kang, i didn't mean it..."

"anyways, this is just one exam. i'm starting remedial classes from tomorrow onwards, so that you won't get such low grades again. you better work hard for the next one."

"i will...mr kang...i...will..."

"alright, you're dismissed. jaeyun, you're next."

heuningkai was watching his best friend get scolded by his math teacher, who was apparently even more frustrated at jisung because he was a gifted child, and he knew him from before.

when jisung turned back to sit next to him, heuningkai noticed that jisung was not teary-eyed, let alone a single hint of sadness in his face. he was uncannily stoic, like if someone just siphoned his emotions out of him.

"ji...you fine?" heuningkai asked, even if he knew the answer to that question. jisung merely looked at him in silence for a few seconds before looking down.

"yeah, i'm fine," he spoke out, his tone bland and devoid of any emotions. he noticed that heuningkai was getting worried about his demeanour, so he decided to blurt out a lie to convince him otherwise. "i was just feeling a bit down before, nothing else."

"are you sure? if you want, i'll stay back at college with you," heuningkai asked, still worried for him.

"kai, i'm fine. and besides, remedial classes start tomorrow, not today," jisung supplied, his voice sounding happy yet shallow. "now if you'll excuse me, i'll just..."

jisung trailed off as he headed straight to the bathroom, confusing heuningkai but he shrugged it off, but little did he know is his dear friend was heading for the worst way of coping yet.

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15 minutes had passed by and jisung was nowhere to be seen.

heuningkai was worried sick as mr kim's classes had already started and jisung still hasn't come back from the bathroom. knowing that he was on his limit, he excused himself and rushed straight to the empty bathroom.

he heard hisses and sniffles nearby, and he decided to approach the place slowly, but his footsteps were too loud and it was too late as the noises stopped.

"ji...? you there?" he asked, sighing.

out of nowhere, jisung appeared in front of him, his head convulsing as if he was shivering but its localized to his skull. he looked at heuningkai with wide eyes, and his face had dried up tears.

"ji, please. you don't have to hide anything from me," heuningkai spoke out, sighing. "what were you doing in there anyways?"

jisung sighed, making up another lie on the spot. "i...just needed to break down and cry it all out, nothing else," he said firmly, his fists hiding his blade clenched really hard. fortunately, heuningkai did buy his lie, much to his satisfaction.

"alright...but do tell me if you want to cry once again, or else i'll be worried about you," heuningkai sighed, walking out the doorway. "let's go already, next class is mr song's."

a/n: i'm sorry this chapter is crappily written and i kinda wrote this scene based off of yuri from ddlc 😭😭

(wtf nct dream ddlc au is terrifying to think of-

jisung as yuri, jaemin as monika, renjun as natsuki, hyuck as sayori and mark, jeno and chenle in the background...yup, that is terrifying af.)

also, guess who the teachers are uwuwuwuwuwuwu ;)