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Y/N's POV, 1985

Sometimes I didn't know what to make of my relationship with Nikki Sixx, sometimes I think I know what the fucks going on but other times I realise I have no idea.

I should know by now given I've known him since his Seattle days, I moved there from Michigan and ended up living across the street from him and spent many hours over a couple of months watching him sitting outside on his porch, sometimes at ridiculous times in the night though that probably happened more than I saw as I only saw him at those times when I couldn't sleep myself.

I always felt bad for him as sometimes if I had my window open I could hear the yelling between him, his mom and her boyfriends sometimes even their physical ones and this was when we were like eleven.

We went to the same school too, and one day I approached him when he was sat alone at lunch and ate with him. He looked at me and recognised me as the new girl who lives opposite him but didn't say anything to me, we just ate in silence and after a couple of weeks of this, I got kinda shy because it had been days and he hadn't spoke to me yet although I tried to start a conversation, he wouldn't play ball so one day at lunch, I didn't sit with him, and sat on a table a few away from where he was, also alone.

But then, much to my pleasant surprise, Nikki came over and sat next to me and smiled a little, he then apologised for not talking and explained that people didn't ever really wanna hang around him and it was only since I started sitting with him that anyone had shown interest in being his friend.

It was easy to make friends with Nikki because I was new and he was an outsider so we clicked, that and I was kinda a loner too, I was shy and didn't approach people to talk, I only talk if I'm prompted too. Nikki although he tried to hide it sometimes was also shy, or at least he was back then and out friendship quickly went from just hanging out at lunch, to walking to school together and then hanging together after school and Nikki regularly coming over to mine for dinner, as he admitted to me pretty quickly if his less than ideal living conditions as I had kinda brought it up one day and he knew better than to deny it.

Nikki also stayed over many nights, being either un willing or mentally unable to face going home to the abuse and bullshit he had to endure there. He got pushed to a limit many times and sometimes the simple thought of having to go back to his mom after school would make him break down into tears.

I helped him as much as I could and he has been my closest friend since then, and a few years ago I finally admitted to myself that I'd fallen in love with him.

And last week we'd slept together for the first time and it was everything I'd ever hoped for, and the next morning I hoped to be in Nikki's arms and start new chapter together. But that's not what happened.

When I woke up the next morning I woke up alone and it might sound overdramatic but I felt my world kinda fall apart.

Think how it looked to me though, Nikki had been my best friend since we were children, I'd come to LA with him against my parents wishes, almost ruining my relationship with them completely, left behind everything for him because he asked me to run away with him and I couldn't say no because I loved him and didn't want him to be alone.

I'd supported him through everything he'd ever asked me too, and when everything we've been through together came to a head and we slept together with me believing he loved me like I loved him, he just leaves me before I wake up like I was another groupie and mark on a tally.