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Y/N's POV, 2001

When I first met Nikki, I was working for Mötley Crüe on their 'Dr Feelgood' tour and he instantly had a thing for me, we ran into each other before one of the first shows of that tour and he just followed me around until he needed to get on stage then found me afterwards, he was persistent and flirted with me right from the get go.

Getting that attention was amazing and it made me feel good because a rockstar was into me, wouldn't that make any girl feel good?

But there was only one problem with Nikki, he was married, so I never returned his advances... at first anyway.

But that tour was long and Brandi was hardly ever on tour with him and I liked him, I really really did and keeping away from him after a while became difficult, and one day I just got tired of feeling things for him without being able to act on it, so one night when he flirted with me, I flirted back and when he kissed me, I kissed him back and it all felt great, until the following morning when I woke up next to him.

He was married and I'd just slept with him, I hated myself. I confronted Nikki the next morning with how I felt about what we'd done and he said it wasn't a big deal, he said that it felt right so why did I care about the fact he was married?

He told me he loved me and I remember just breaking down into tears because it wasn't right. I'd fallen for him too but we couldn't be together, I forbid it, I wasn't going to go behind Brandi's back, even if she never really was someone I liked, I still couldn't bring myself to go behind her back with her husband.

After that night Nikki and I had together, I quit my job with the band the following day and tried to forget that I slept with Nikki Sixx, tried to forget I loved him and that he loved me.

I know I hurt Nikki, I knew because I wouldn't let him talk after he said those damn three words to me, and I eventually told him this wouldn't work, even if I felt the same, it was wrong, then I left.

And that's the last I saw of him.

Until three years ago, in 1998 when I was casually just shopping in a mall, not my usual one, one near where Nikki lived and I ended out coincidentally bumping into him, it was not like he called out to me after walking past me but that's the moment all those feelings for Nikki I'd locked away came flooding back seeing him in person again, he looked different, and I didn't know what to make of his hair honestly but he was still beautiful and was still the guy I could find no faults on.

When we walked into each other that day, Nik gave me his phone number off the bat saying that he wanted to catch up because we hadn't seen each other in so long, I took his number and gave him mine thinking he wanted to be friends, as he was married again to a woman named Donna after him and Brandi split up in 1996.

However, I found out that he wasn't just looking for us to be friends because it turned out his feelings for me hadn't faded all that much either, and that caused all kinds of problems.

I should have just laid down the rules with him and being very specific about being just friends, and I did at first to an extent when we first started hanging out together however Nikki saw straight through me and knew I'd crumble if he kept pushing me.

I'd been single for a couple of years when Nik and I ran into each other, having come out of a three year relationship a few months before hand which Nikki loved as it meant I was free for him to makes moves on, in his opinion.