Love At First Kick

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The opening ceremony is tomorrow at 1 PM. We had our last training session today, and then we had a meeting. We were told how to act and what to do at the games. They explained where we would be during the ceremony and what we needed to wear. It was quite detailed and planned, but I guess that's to be expected.

Currently, I'm in my room, all alone with my thoughts as Imanu was too nervous to sit still, so she left God knows where. But that is perfect. I don't feel like talking to her.

I'm actually scared. For the first time in a long time, I'm scared. Only a little, but scared nonetheless. I just need Jimin to come and hold me.

And it's like he heard my thoughts. He showed up at my room door, peeking his head in.

'Hello, gorgeous.' He flashed me that angelic smile that reaches his eyes and my heart

'Hiya.' I smiled back, almost running to him

'What's wrong, baby?' He noticed me hugging him a bit too tightly, melting into him, but definitely not relaxing. 'What's the matter?' He repeated softly

I stood there, hugging him silently for a few moments before responding.
'I'm scared.'

I thought he might be surprised or joke a bit, but he did neither of those things. Instead, he placed one hand on my head, stroking my hair, talking in a soft, caring voice. 'I know.'

'Come here.' He scooped me up, picking me up and going to my bed as he held me gently. He sat down, placing me on his lap. 'Tell me everything.'

'I'm scared. I was never scared before. I don't know what to do.' I tell him, trying not to look into his eyes. I was ashamed. I was supposed to be the one helping him because he is the one who's always getting scared.

'It's alright to be scared. It's alright to be nervous. I know you're not used to it, but the situation is not common. It is a lot of stress. Of course you would be scared.' He was caressing my face that I hid in his neck, speaking softly

'But I'm supposed to help you get through this. How can I do that if I can't even help myself?'

'Maybe you can let me help you this time. It's about time that you rely on me for something.' He kissed the top of my head

'I rely on you for a lot of things. But this is supposed to be something you can rely on me for. I'm sorry.' I felt my eyes fill up with tears, but I was unable to hide it from him as he cupped my face, lifting it up to look at me

'I'm the one that should be sorry. For 5 years, I've relied on you every single time when I was scared. I put all of my pressure on you, and you always pushed me through. I didn't realize until just now, just how much pressure I put on you. I never wanted you to think that you have to take my fear away. Yet, you did it anyway. Let me take your fear away, just this once. Please.'

'I never thought of you pressuring me. Not once. I was happy that I could help you. I was happy that I could do this one thing for you when you're doing everything else for me. I was just ashamed that I was not able to do it now.' I sniffle

'You don't have to do it, baby. You took my fear and worries and my pain away for almost 5 years. Let me take yours from here on now. Please.' The look in his eyes... he is not afraid. Not at all. He meant every word

I nodded lightly, feeling like I'm gonna cry. 'I don't know what to do.' My voice cracked as my tears spilt over my bottom lashes

He smiled softly, wiping my tears away, one by one. 'What is it that scares you, baby? Tell me all your worries.'

'I'm scared of these games. This is massive. This is a part of history. What if I lose? What if I lose badly? What if I embarrass myself? I'm afraid of all that, but the thing I'm most afraid of is disappointing you.' I went on a little rant, and he listened to everything patiently until the last part. His eyes opened a bit in surprise, but he tried to keep himself collected.