Confessions of a Bunny

~****ONYX****~

Damn I didn't think I'd see you again. You went to Vegas and forgot all about us. Now you know damn well I didn't forget about yall, I've been working, and you act like I wasn't just here a few months ago. Shawna, you were here 6 months ago for the holidays, and we haven't seen, nor have we heard from you since then. Well, are you gonna let me in or are we gonna have this argument in front of all of your neighbors? Come in, she said rolling her eyes at me as she held the door open for me to come in with my stuff. I see you only have one suite case, so you won't be staying long. What's with the 3rd degree, you on your period or something? No, I am not on my period for your information because if I was, I'd probably knock you upside your head for talking to me out the side of your neck. Is that right I said looking at her? We stared each other down for a moment before busting out laughing. Girl why you playing like we ain't ever fought before I said hugging her. I gotta keep yo ass on your toes, you went out to Las Vegas and started acting brand new. I haven't! Ugh yes you have, in case you didn't notice you left St. Louis with Walmart luggage and came back Gucci. It was a gift. Mhm I am sure it was, don't tell me you out there screwing that married man. It's not even like that he's, my boss. But yall still fucking aren't you!

That was the secret that I didn't want anyone to find out about, because I said I'd never cross that line with Nicoli. It was one thing for us to flirt it was another for him to have my ass up in one of the VIP suites while the Bunny ranch was popping. I still remember that night it happened, it was right before he closed the VIP suites to get them redone the first time. It happened so fast and if Amethyst hadn't knocked on the door, we'd probably done it all around that suite. Needless to say, after that I kept going back to him, that is when he wasn't snooping around Sapphire's ass. She literally didn't want to be by bothered him but for some reason he was in love with her, and I couldn't understand. I even asked him once, why he kept pursuing her if she didn't want him. He politely reminded me that I am the secretary not his wife and to mind my business. I started minding my business alright, this little luggage wasn't the only gift he'd given me.

Shawna! Yeah! I mean no I am not sleeping with him any longer, he has another set of interests there. I am sure he does, so what do we owe the pleasure of you coming to town? Well for one I wanted to see my baby; I miss her. And the second reason! I need to talk Hakeem. Ahh the truth comes out she said chuckling. How the hell did he even find out about that place I never told him the name of it. I don't know its Las Vegas, ain't there like 10 strips per street block. Mimi really! What! The ranch is in the middle of the damn dessert and that party I was at wasn't advertised on TV so how did he find out? I don't know girl, that was Chico's bachelor party, and you know what kind nigga he is, he probably found it and told them they should go out there too it. It was so fucking embarrassing there I was with ass all out and then I see my brother. You act like Hakeem ain't never your ass before yall are siblings. When I was 5 not 28, and definitely not in a G string with my tittes out either. Oh, damn you was out there like that, I know you made some good money that night. Not funny, I said shaking my head. I am sure he's over it by now. I don't think so I called to talk to Mercedes a few weeks ago and the nigga hung up in my face. He didn't let me talk to her and she's the one I called for. I don't know what to tell you girl other that a lot of stuff has been going on. I know but damn he didn't have to hang up on me, he could have just handed the phone to her. You know how Hakeem is, he overreacts to shit. If you don't mind, can I stay with you while I am in town? Of course, how long you in town? 2 weeks, I wanna see my baby and take care of some business for my mom. Mercedes should be home in a few minutes, it's the last week of school so you know how the kids are. Yeah, wanting to be out in the streets like they ain't got no damn sense. Exactly!

Ever since I decided to make that move to Vegas a little more permanently, I'd let go of my apartment in exchange for helping Mimi get a bigger place for her and Mercedes. I also gave her my car because hers was on its last leg. Essentially, I'd given her everything she needed to take care of my child and I also send money monthly to take care of anything that Mercedes may need. I was also sending money to help with my mother's bills as well, because Hakeem couldn't take care of all of it, he had a family to look after as well. That was part of the reason why I went to Las Vegas to work the other part was...well you know I am still young, and I wanted to live the fast life too. That was Hakeem's biggest issue with me going to Vegas. You know prior to him actually seeing me working. He'd always tell me "You getting that fast money and living style may take you out of here before you're ready". If I had the sense that God gave me, I would have left the ranch 6 months after I got there but the money was too good, and I fell deep into the allure of doing and being around dangerous shit. I'd lived my whole life by the book. Well as much as I could growing in the hood to a single mother with a mental illness. Some of the shit I'd seen at the ranch I'd never seen growing and I was addicted to it. The thrill and adrenaline of knowing that it was wrong and dangerous kept me coming back, but there was a flip side to it, there was this slight twinge of fear knowing that if something ever happened to me, my family wouldn't know. I'd end up just like those girls on that dirt road that were discarded by an individual that wasn't even as confident in herself as she put herself out there to be. I'd adapted to my environment; I knew it and so did my family. I'd become a target and conquest for people like Rocci. I didn't even trust the bitch like that at first, I kept my distance and was cordial, but I knew she wasn't dealing with a full deck. One night she caught me off guard, being nice and shit, we started kicking it, and the next thing I know her and Dynasty are convincing me that I should do the parties with them to make some extra money. I start doing the parties with the group and then it was just parties with her and her rich white friends. I still remember the night the shit went down. She said I needed to be tested to make sure I could handle these parties by myself. I know this girl knew that I wasn't no virgin, I have a whole baby. But she said she had to test me out to make sure I was good for the business.