Confessions of a Bunny

~**Mystic**~

I'd been here 3 years now and I can't say that it's gotten any easier than when I first walked into this place. I learned real quick that everyone ain't afraid of you and as much as I put on this tough persona, I wasn't tough at all. As you can probably tell from my first introduction to this place I've made quite a few enemies, ones that I didn't realize controlled the balance of this place. After coming at Sapphire, the wrong way I fell in with the wrong crowd, started hanging out with the ratchets upstirs. They liked me because I took on the untouchable role , but they also didn't trust me because to them, I am just another white girl trying to act black. They had no idea how black I really was, I mean my daddy is black and not half black he's full black, I got a big mama, Paw Paw, an Uncle Joe, and an Auntie Trina. Any stereotypical thing you can think of that comes with being black, I had, and I grew up around as well. My mother's side of the family wasn't really around when we were younger, I knew I had an aunt and some cousins but other than that we didn't see them until my mom and dad got divorced. Once they divorced all the sudden, we started seeing them more and being told that we aren't black we're half black and we'll get farther in life if we should ignore that side of ourselves. That's easier said than done for my little sisters that look more black than white. I was the only one that didn't get darker skin tone, but I did get the hair texture and my father facial features though. 

Speaking of my father, I was surprised when he reached out to me a few weeks ago, saying he was coming to Vegas, and he wanted to see me. How he got my direct contact information I had no clue, but I was happy because did need to see some sort of family, especially at these turbulent times at the ranch. He knew where I was from the very beginning. As you can see from the other girls' stories a lot of stuff has gone down. Some stuff I was present for and some stuff I wasn't, but I knew that no matter how much stuff went down it wouldn't make Nicoli close that ranch. Nope in fact it made him go harder, he had a revolving door of girls in and out of the ranch, but he made sure to bend over backwards to keep certain ones from leaving the ranch. But we'll get to the ones should really be gone later, right now I want to focus on spending this time with my dad.

You know I don't agree with what you did and how you did it right. I know daddy but I couldn't take it anymore and mama wasn't going to do anything about it. So, the phone didn't work for you to call and tell me to come and get you? I didn't want to cause any drama it was better to remove myself than to have you end up in jail. I am a grown man, Jade; I can handle myself and if my daughter or rather my daughters aren't in a good environment, I need to regulate it. That's my daddy for you, he doesn't play no games about his daughters. I didn't reach out to my mom as much, but I wanted to, I didn't want her husband trying to come and find me. But my daddy, naw I couldn't tell him especially when I called him from Vegas to begin with. As I mentioned before he's known my whereabouts since I got here. Now before you think why didn't he just come and get you? I may have lead him to believe that I wasn't alone and that my sisters and mom were here as well. That backfired a little and that's when he found out that I was out here alone. Now what he didn't know is what I do for a living. I am a lot of things but stupid ain't one of them and I wasn't about to tell my father that I am out here stripping rather coming back to Texas and getting a decent job to support myself. I wasn't dumb, I graduated a year early and on top of that I can sing, I didn't have a dire need to do what I do other than its easy money and I ain't gotta do much for it.

I am ok for real daddy I have a job and a place to stay, much better than what I was living in, in Texas. Hmph well I'll believe that when I see it. When you see it? You didn't really think I was coming to Las Vegas to see you and not see where you're living at. Daddy it's just an apartment. Don't play with me like I just fell off the turnip truck yesterday. It's nothing to big I mean enough for me. Ok I still wanna see it. Da...before I could finish my word, I saw someone walk into the restaurant. Shit! Excuse me! I am sorry Daddy. He looked over his shoulder at the person that I was looking at before looking back at me. You know her? Unfortunately, I do. Why is it unfortunate and don't lie to me Jade? We work at the same place. And that place is, cause she definitely don't look like the receptionist type. What are you trying to say daddy? I am trying to get you to tell me truth Jade! We sitting at this nice ass restaurant and you driving a car that I know you can't afford if you ain't doing little something for some money. Who told you? You gave yourself away, look at where we sitting at, ain't no way you can afford this restaurant on a minimum wage job. I don't sleep with the men! I would certainly hope not and if you did, please never tell me. Are you gonna tell my mom? Trust me I got a lot to tell her, this would be the last thing on the list I'd mention. As long as you're safe, you ain't hooked on no drugs, you don't have no communicable diseases, and I know where you are I am fine with it for now. Eventually though you will need to make a move and do something with your life. You're smart! I know you are, stripping ain't going to get you nowhere in life but in the grave and quick at that. I know daddy and I've been thinking about going back to school. You finished High school right. Yes, daddy I finished high school I said laughing before the devil herself walked over to the table.