Confessions of a Bunny

~****Ruby****~

I miss you so much mama I mumbled looking at the picture of us together. It was one of the last pictures that we took together before she died. Although it had been over 7 years since she died it still didn't erase the pain of me missing her and feeling this intense guilt for not being able to be there for my brother. He's gotten so big now and the family that adopted him is taking really good care of him, I know he doesn't have a worry or care in the world. He has a mother and father that love him unconditionally and would do anything for him. Me on the other hand got the short of the stick when it came to the father. He didn't care any more about me than he does about the girls that work for him. To him I am just an employee and he'll never see me any differently than that. One day mama I am gonna leave this place and never look back either I said putting her picture away as someone knocked on the door.

Who is it? It's me, he said through the door. Hold on a minute, I said closing the box and putting it back up in my closet. Just as I walked out of the closet, he decides to come in. What part of hold on a minute didn't you understand? Last time I checked I owned this house. I could have been naked. It ain't like I ain't never seen a woman's body before. Eww that's disgusting I am your daughter not one of them hoes you deal with. You like to throw that word around as if it hurts me or something. What do you want Nicoli, I need to study before tonight's activities. Well since you already have an attitude no need in sugar coating the situation. It's time for you to move out of this room. What do you mean I have to move out of my room? It's that time and besides you're grown you can take care of yourself right. You've got to be fucking kidding right now? You are really going to treat me like a common hoe, like you treat all these other girls here. It's all business Cierra, and I can't have them thinking I show you special treatment just because.... because what I am your daughter. That's the fucking truth I am your daughter and you more concerned about what they think of you. Why are you fighting this Cierra I thought you'd be glad to not be under my watchful eye. Yeah, right try again because you barely here and when you are it's not like you playing father of the year. And what do you mean by that Cierra? Don't act stupid like don't I know what you've been doing with Sapphire and Onyx, it's truly disgusting and vile that you're sleeping with them and God knows who else you sleeping with. You don't know what you're talking about I am not sleeping with anyone. Oh, please cut the bull shit if you ain't fucking Onyx, why is she walking around here on eggshells thinking she's pregnant. The expression on his face said it all to me. He was caught in his lie and he also didn't know that Onyx may be pregnant. Well, she wasn't but he didn't need to know that all he needed to know was that his little secret wasn't a secret anymore. He sniffed and straightened up; you can pick of any room on the first floor but you can't have this one anymore he said walking out the room. I know he didn't just walk out like that.

Calm down Cierra I mumbled to myself before I lost it. I can't believe he was treating me like this. Like he ain't the one that begged me to come out here to Vegas when he knew I wanted to stay in New York with my grandma. I could feel my blood boiling and I had to get out of here before I did something that I wouldn't regret. I grabbed my wallet and keys and stormed out of the room and down the stairs towards the side exit. I was so mad that I ain't even notice that ran into someone. Damn watch out where you going. Fuck you I said not even paying attention to who it was. Oh, damn daddy pissed you off huh. What I said focusing on who it was that was talking to me. Rocci! Yeah, you just ran all up on me. My bad I am sorry. It's cool why you mad? My fa...wait you know that Nicoli is my father. Girl please everybody in here know he's some kind of related to you. You ain't never stepped foot on that stage and he lets you count the money. You either his daughter or another one of his concubines. So, everyone knows how he is. Yeah, they do, she said laughing.

I'd never spoken to Rocci one on one. I just knew that my inner circle didn't trust her. But maybe me playing neutral could get us some more insight on how she operated and what it is that she does when she leaves this ranch. I am sorry for running into you. It's ok just don't do it again. I can't guarantee that. Why do you say that? He's making me move to the dancers' quarters. Wow he really got some balls on him, why would he put you in that situation. Who knows? Well, I know you'll be taken care of on the first floor because he'd die before he put you on the 2nd floor. He said something to that extent. He ain't the smartest man. No, he isn't. I should let you go; I don't want you to get in trouble for being seen with me she said chuckling. I think Nicoli would be more afraid if he saw us together. He'd probably die in his footsteps. True that! Have a good day, Ms. Ruby, she said going back in the ranch. I was too mad to drive so I went to the overlook and decompressed and think about my next move. He wants me to move to dancers' quarters why? Me being over there would only make it easier for me to learn what it is that he really does. See being upstairs away from all the dancers I was protected from a lot of the things that went on. I heard about it being in the business office, but when I wasn't there, I wasn't allowed to be over there and if I was caught over there when I wasn't supposed to be. He'd have a whole bitch fit and try to ground me or some shit. Like come on you got me living in a whole ass brothel and you trying to ground me because I found what shit you been doing. It didn't make sense and it never would either.