Confessions of a Bunny

~****Rocci****~

"Roxanne! Roxanne bring yo ass back here! Don't make me come looking for you Roxanne!" I sat in a cold sweat and looked around the room to see that I wasn't in my hiding spot. Whew I said letting out a deep breath as I shielded my eyes from the bright sun that was streaming into the room. You'd think I'd be used to sleeping during the day and being up all night, but I wasn't. The nighttime didn't scare me, at night I was alive and full of life. It was the daytime that really scared me, it took me back to when I was child, and my mother would leave me with my grandmother while she worked 2 jobs to take care of us. My grandmother wasn't a nice woman at all, and when she wasn't yelling at us, she was hitting us with stuff in the house, or making us stay out in the hot sun all day without food. And then she'd have the nerve to say, "why you kids so black, like your father!". She wasn't found of our dad and the fact that he left my mom with 4 kids while he came over to America to live life with his slut, her words not mine. Needless to say, I learned at a young age to stay out of her way, keep my opinions to myself and most importantly not let her get the best of me. I used to hide in a place where I knew she couldn't get to me because of her physical disability. It wasn't that she couldn't walk, it was just difficult because he had a leg injury from when she was younger. Watching maneuver around the house use to scare me and I'd pray every night that God would never let me get into a situation where I'd be stuck in a body I couldn't use correctly. Eventually she'd get tired of yelling and go sit down in the house. Once she did, I'd sneak out and go back outside where I knew she wouldn't bother me till my mother got home from work.

Now when my mother came home, oh she was completely different, it was literally like night and day. She was loving and nurturing, everything that you'd imagine a grandmother to be she was as soon as she stepped foot in that house. She never let my mother see or find out about the way she treated us kids Hmph she was something but a grandmother she definitely wasn't. By the time I left the island she was wheelchair bound and needed a nurse to see after her every day. She died a few years after I'd got to the states.

I got myself together before going to handle my daily personal hygiene and by the time I was done the girl that was in my bed was waking up. Good morning! Morning! It's 4 in the afternoon, do you plan on staying the whole time. Damn you don't have to be rude she said getting out the bed. I was just asking because you made yourself real comfortable here in my room. You offered! Mhmp I did, didn't I said smirking at her. Check this out, what we doing is cool and all but...shhh don't over think it, we're just having fun that's all. Can I borrow your shower? Go ahead, I said moving so she could get into the bathroom. Thanks, she said going into the bathroom and shooting the door behind her. I don't know what it was about her, but she was definitely a well needed distraction from all of the mess that's been going on lately. The cops been snooping around the ranch interviewing girls about people that none of them even knew. Surprisingly thought they'd never asked to interview me, and I was the one that knew them best. I wasn't proud of what I did to Christine, but she had to go, she was causing problems for not only Nicoli but me as well and I couldn't have that. Venus wasn't my... I didn't have anything to do with Venus's disappearance. In fact, I was just as shocked as everyone else when they said that she was gone. I couldn't believe it which is why I was trying to get into her room to see what happened to all of her belongings because once the cops got there, they basically kicked us out of the ranch for two weeks because it was considered a crime scene. When I finally did go into her room it was empty, none of her belongings were there, all of her pictures and everything were gone, the only thing that was left was a few old clothes, and some shoes that were in the closet. I wondered why that stuff was left but everything else was gone but I wasn't going to ask question because then it'd make me look guilty. Well guiltier than I already was for other things that I'd done in this place. I am not a bad person, it's just that some people don't learn when I warn them about stuff. Nyx and Gina just couldn't keep their damn mouths shut so I had to guarantee that they wouldn't say anything.