What never should've happened.

Home pt. 1.5

Yoongi's POV

The way your voice trembled made his heart clench. This truly was a big step for you and, while he had no idea what he had done to deserve your trust after only two dates, he knew that this was something he had to appreciate and cherish.

He bowed at a ninety degree angle to show his respect. "Thank you, Y/N. Thank you for allowing me the honor of being here, I promise I will always respect you and your home."

The way you smiled, sheepishly, and gestured for him to go inside had him all giddy.

He stepped into your living room and was surprised at your choice of furniture. Most of them were black: the couches, the chairs, even the lamps and dining room chairs.

In contrast, the walls were stark white, except for the one opposite the large couch, where the flat-screen was hung and the sound system was located, which was…purple, ARMY purple. That made him smile.

"You have a beautiful home, Y/N."

"Thank you. I try to keep it as tidy as possible, but it gets hard when I get home so late every night and then on weekends, I try to sleep in but can't, because I have errands to run."

"I know the feeling. What doesn't really click for me is…black?"

"What's so weird about it?" You said and tilted your head, genuinely confused.

"I don't know…I guess that given what I know of your personality, I expected lighter colors and maybe some bold neons," he chuckled, "the purple wall is a nice touch though."

"Neon?" You laughed, "I think you will find it surprising, but about ninety percent of my clothes are black."

He looked at you incredulously. Hu?

You shrugged. "I fell in love with grunge, hard rock and heavy metal as a teen and got into that scene. After reaching my twenties I just kept the color scheme and I still love that kind of music."

Could you get any more interesting? Yoongi would've never pegged you for a rock chick, you were the opposite of what he thought. 

"Besides, it's easier to blend in and look slimmer in black. It helped through the hard times."

He rolled his eyes. "Again with the weight thing? Y/N, what do I have to do to make you realize how beautiful you are?"

He meant it. It was baffling to him that you didn't see it.

"You don't have to say that, Yoongi. I know I'm not ugly enough to scare someone, but I also know I'm not miss universe and that's okay." You walked into the kitchen and put the kettle on.

"It has never bothered me. "

Yoongi followed you and leaned on the counter as he watched you move.  "I will make sure you know how beautiful you are, even if it takes me years. You really don't know anything." It upset him.

"I…I need to take a shower and you should too." You said, changing the topic. "I have a few other oversized tees that you can wear and some sweats. Your jeans are clinging to your thighs."

You pointed out as you left the kitchen and went to the second bedroom's closet. Yoongi never strayed from the living/ dining room/ kitchen area, you knew he wasn't all that comfortable yet.

When you came back, holding a fluffy towel, a pair of sweatpants, a new toothbrush and a Calvin Klein tee -of all things-  he realized that you were still cold.

"Here you go," you said as you handed him the clothes, "the secondary room doesn't have a shower, just a toilet, but you can use the shower in my room. I'll brew some tea while you go."

Yoongi shook his head. "You go first. Your hair is soaked and you're still shivering and cold to the touch, you'll catch a cold."

"No, you go."

"Y/N…" he looked at you with somewhat of an exasperated look.

"Yoongi…I…okay, let me put this out there." You took a deep breath and in one go you said, "This will be the first time in three years that I take a shower with a man in my house. My head is screaming at me that there might be danger, that I should run. I'm trying not to run. If you give me a few minutes to wrap my head around the idea I know I will be able to calm down."

A pang of sadness hit Yoongi. He didn't want to make you feel unsafe or uncomfortable in your own home. On the contrary, he wanted to make you feel safe, to protect you.

Caressing the side of your face, he noticed how you trembled a bit, and he hoped it was not a bad thing. "Y/N, I don't have to take a shower and I don't have to stay any longer if you don't want me to. It's whatever you need and want. I can leave."

"No. Stay. Take a shower. That is what I need. I need to claim back what I lost and you are helping me tremendously by doing this. I wouldn't do it with anyone else."

Yoongi realized just then that this whole thing was really an ordeal for you, but that you were fighting, you wanted to win and he would help you in any way he could. "Yes, ma'am." He said as he began walking towards your room.

"Don't be surprised or shocked about what you find in my room!" You shouted after him.