Surging Desire || CullensxOc

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"What did your mom say?" I asked looking up from my phone. I was texting Seth about a bonfire they would be having soon. He kept asking me to go and I finally agreed. There was still a couple days left before the event and I was excited. I wanted to see everyone in La Push.

Bella had been sat next to me in the passenger seat of my car. After she had come back from her trip with Edward, I called her and told her I would pick her up for some girl time. And I just wanted to be with her when she got back. Mainly to make sure she wasn't hurt, and everything was okay.

Though with the small sighs she gave every now and then, and the way her eyes kept searching for something in the distance; I could tell that something was eating away at her mind.

"Renée mentioned about how I act around Edward. How we seem like we're magnets. There was more to it. But I don't know, just the thought of knowing that she could see right through me...do you think I'm in too deep. Too over my head when it comes to him?" She questions. Her lips are pursed as she lays her head against the window while I drive.

I hesitate before I answer, "I think you two are in love. And I don't think you should let what other people say get to you. They will never understand our bonds with each other unless they have their owns. I don't think having deep chemistry and magnetic energy is anything to worry about."

"Yes. I just worry about leaving her behind in this world. I know she will have phill, but for how long? And Charlie, I don't know what he will do without me" She speaks sadly.

"They will find someone. They won't be alone forever. You won't be alone either. You have Edward and the others. You have me. I'm here" I softly state.

"Thank you Lia," she speaks in relief, "I could only imagine what she would have thought if you were there with us. I can't keep my hands off you."

I just giggle at her words. She flatters me too much sometimes.

"Did you tell her about your plans for after graduation?" I questioned.

"Like what? 'Oh hey mom. Just so you know, I'm planning on turning into a vampire after schools up. And I just wanted your approval" she laughed.

I shake my head, "Not what I meant. I mean can you imagine the look on her face, when you tell her your favorite food is bunny's...alive," I laughed back, "I meant telling her that your going to 'Alaska' and you won't be able to visit for a long time."

"Yeah. We talked about it. She didn't have much to say about the whole Alaska thing" she shrugged.

"And what else?" I pry knowing it's something deeper.

She sighed, "She mentioned future kids, and visiting, and I....i don't know. For just a moment I felt lost. Like am I making the right decisions."

"Bella. It'll be tough knowing you can't see her. But remember that this is the life you choose. You aren't doing it out of greed or malicious intent. You are making this decision purely on what your heart feels. You're doing it out of love. If you feel any ounce of regret, pause for a moment and think about what you really want" I voiced pulling into the local park, where we would have our picnic. I park and cut the engine. Turning so I can face her.

"We both want the same things. To live our life's with our soulmates. But if you feel like there is something else to live for, that's what you should do. If you know it'll make you happy. Because no one else can tell you you what to do. So...right now, what is that you want?" I asked.

Her brown eyes locked with my blue. Her own gazing deeply into mine, trying to find her answer. I turn my head so she can think for herself. And after a moment she speaks.

"I want to live the rest of eternity with you and with Edward. I want to make memories, and mistakes that I learn from. I want to look you in the eyes for the next millennium, knowing that I followed my dream to be with you and him. I know that, is something I will never regret" She answered from the bottom of her heart.

I turn so that I am looking at her again. And I reach my hand out to cup her cheek. When she silently leans in to nuzzle into my palm, I lean forward and press a delicate kiss upon her lips.

"Then that is all there is to it" I whispered.

"I love you" she says.

"I love you too."