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There was an absence of apparent motion in the air. The sun beaming down from the sky, shining light upon the rows of graves. My father's silver headstone glittering from the rays of the sun.  I sat crisscrossed on the green grass, one palm touching the ground where his body rest.

I open the box I had brought along with me. Pulling out a small golden locket. It contained a picture of my father and I. I was eight years old in the photo pressing a kiss against my dad face as he held me in the air. I had just gotten first place in the science fair that day. It was a memory I hold dear.

I look at the cross built into the top of my dad's headstone. And I clip the necklace to the cross, watching the locket dangle against my father's name. Glittering in the sunlight along with the stone. Tears slip out of my eyes.

I felt a sense of security and calmness all around me. Knowing there was no more war, and everything was finally coexisting and harmony.

Freedom.

"Hi Daddy! You don't understand how much I miss you. Nobody will ever know just how tough it has been without you. Coming here and speaking to you helps me more than you know. I have something to confess, I did a lot of things that you would not have approved of. Trying to fill the empty space in my soul knowing you're gone. I searched for many things to fill myself up, but I know nothing will ever be able to replace you.

But what no one ever tells you about loosing a parent, it's that you are never really gone. You linger in the air I breathe. Your touch still present on the items I own. Sometimes I feel the air change around me, like you showing me along the way. I just know you're there. Guiding me.

I could never forget you. A large part of me is still lost. I'm wondering if I will ever get that back. But maybe that piece is in heaven with you. And someday when you finally pass over you will send it back to me and I will be whole again.

I don't want you to think by me saying this that I am not doing well. More often than not I find myself wishing you would come back. But then I think that I don't want you to suffer ever again. Things always happen for a reason.

You told me that.

I am actually doing way better than I have in a while since I last saw you. I have a purpose here, I have love, and I have family. And I have you to thank for that. If I had never came here and found you again. I don't know where I would have ended up. You gave me the best gift of all time.

Belonging.

Until we met again."




I stood on the roof of my now forever home

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I stood on the roof of my now forever home. My new family surrounding me as we watched the sun start to appear in the sky. It was early morning, but it felt like a new year.

"Dawn is breaking" Alice says as the orange light from the sun shines down on us. I breathed in the fresh dewy air, sighing in pure comfort.

We had been through so much. And I knew that there was more to come. But this was just the begin, the beginning of our new lives.

"Breakingdawn, it's phenomenal" I whispered. I liked the sound of that even better.

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