Surging Desire || CullensxOc

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For now my family has decided that we will proceed with our lives. Of course we were all on edge that any day something would come our way. We wanted to make memories and cherish each other while we still could. Nobody would actually say it; but we all are scared that any day now could be our last together. I think the fear of the unknown followed us wherever we go.

My dad's headstone faced me as I sat on the soiled ground. I didn't care about getting dirty as the rain poured down from the sky, washing away all dirt. My fingers played with the lockets handing from his grave.

"Dad I miss you more than you can imagine. I'm sure your in heaven sipping on a cold beer and fighting your new friends over who's gonna win the Super Bowl this year," I chuckled, "I'm sure your also worrying about me and wondering if I'm doing okay without you. If I'm being honest I would feel much better if you were here with me. But then I think that I'm happy that you're no longer here. That you no longer have to suffer; that you wouldn't have to worry about where I disappeared to when I would have no longer been able to see you. I want you to know that I am loved and I am happy. Sure we are going through something major right now. But if I can't find the good in the little moments, I fear I might fall into the dark. Dad I love you, and I wish for you to guide me through these times."

I press a kiss against the locket and stand up. With one last look I look around seeing no one here and I zoom off.

"I think it's time to get rid of the Beatles haircut" I joke running my fingers through Edward's dark brown hair. His body is sat between my legs with his back leaning against my front from when I had held him against me. We are slumped on the floor together in his room; his favorite music playing in the background. We had been enjoying each other's presence, we had the kind of relationship where we didn't need to talk to be comfortable. The little things that make me feel whole.

He chuckles at my words craning his neck to face me with a raise of his eyebrow. I giggle back and place a kiss on his lips to tell him I'm joking.

"I could use a cut," he quietly states against my lips, "You have something in mind?"

"Do you trust me?" I ask ignoring his initial question.

"You know I do" He confessed his eyes sparkling as he looks at me.

"Great, you're gonna look so fucking fine when I'm done" I cheer. I mean he was already sexy and handsome and beautiful, but something about a fresh cut on a man was world changing.

Grinning I move him slightly so we can stand. I grab onto his hand and pull him out of his room with me. Operation hair is a go. We move to my bathroom in my bedroom and I make him sit on the toilet lid. He complies silently and watches me move around. I pull out my hair kit that contains scissors, electric hair trimmer, combs, and a hair cape. I knew this would come in handy one day, and it was my father's.

"Okay babe," I strap the cape around his neck, "The sideburns need shaved down, and since you let me do your hair. You also agreed for me to do your eyebrows. It's giving caterpillar, it's a turn off."

"You find joy in bullying me, don't you?" He asked a small smirk on his lips. He wasn't actually offended, he just liked messing with me.

"Yes...yes I do" I stated. Then I get to work as he sits completely stone still. I take my precious time working on his hair. I wanted to bring back the slightly upturned hair and messy look. When I'm done cutting and styling his hair and sideburns, I move onto his eyebrows; pulling out my tweezers, I stand between his legs as he holds onto my hips. He so tall that him sitting on the seat he's almost eye level with me.

I pull my hand back with a grin. My work here was done. "What do you think?"

"You did a great job angel, I love it" He claims with a small grin. His hands soothing through his hair as he looks into the mirror. His own sparking eyes look at mine through the mirror; and I can't help but think that I haven't seen him this happy or relaxed in a long time.

Wahhhh he is so majestic.

Esme and I were in her work room. She had her own little nook in the corner of the second floor hallway. In the room there laid blue prints, writing utensils, a laptop, and tones of measuring tools. She absolutely loves this room and spends a lot of time in here. Along with her love of architecture; she also does her teaching in here. She had been a teacher in her human life; and has taken on the role of keeping me updated for my senior year. She was licensed in homeschooling, so this was how I would get my GED.

But we aren't in here for any of those things right now. Esme and I had wanted to talk about everything we have recently learned. She felt awful about my father, my death, and my old friend. I was here to assure her that nothing was her or anyone else's fault.

After our talk we had gotten a little....distracted.

Our lips had touched at one point during our conversation. Electricity running between us as we kisses gently but passionately.

My mates have been more touchy lately and I wasn't complaining. I can't lie and say I haven't loved all the attention, and the kisses were an added bonus. Nothing has went past make-out sessions with the others, and I didn't mind. I liked taking my time with everyone.

But I am the one giving Esme attention first. I had been the one to initially the intimacy between us. I don't even remember when I had sat on the ground and pulled the woman to sit on my lap.

The warmth of her delicate mouth sent a wave of pleasure through my veins. I had my arms wrapped around her body as I kept her against me. My mouth was hot against her as I was egged on by her little gasp and moans of pleasure. Her hands held the sides of my face, I wouldn't be able to pull away even if I wanted and I definitely did not want to.

My hands explored her body, sliding from her waist around her back and slightly up her shirt so I could feel her skin against my own.

"You're driving me crazy," Esme mumbled hee voice clouded with lust.

I giggled and press one last kiss against her lips. "I think I like it that way, I'll drive you up a wall any day."

"Gosh you're a tease. We better actually get to work" She sighed standing up. My hands drop into my lap as I smirk. My eyes watching hee body up and down. When she meets my eyes I'm sure she would be blushing if she could.

"Fine" I pout giving in when she raised an eyebrow at me.