Surging Desire || CullensxOc

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I hadn't seen that car coming. The backroad I had walked along never had anyone on it. It was a safe place, or well used to be a safe place. I had music playing in my ears from my headphones and hadn't heard the vehicle approaching.

I can burn vampires to a crisp, throw massive wolves around like they weight nothing but a feather; I can fucking levitate. And I get killed because I get crushed between a tree and car. That's so fucking lame.

I've been a vampire for a few days now, almost nine. It was not good for us to lie, but we had to lie to the pack so they would not attack us. Edward had been the one to come up with the story. The story that I was with the others in Seattle and had been attacked by a nomad vampire when I had wandered off on my own. It was the only way for them not to find out I was bitten here in Forks. Even if my situation was life or death, it would not matter. They believe us and we just rolled with him.

The others hadn't told Bella the truth of how I turned. I didn't know why, but they had said it was better she didn't know. I was confused but didn't bother asking. I didn't really care to be honest.

Obviously the wolves were not happy with my changing. They had warned me about coming onto their land, which I knew I wouldn't ever be allowed to again. Though it did hurt to see my old friends treating me differently. The only person not treating me like a soulless monster was Seth. Even Leah couldn't look at me anymore and I knew that friendship went down the drain.

Seth wasn't able to see me in La Push anymore. But if he ever came over to Forks, I wished to see him. If Leah were to ever loose some pride and come as well. I would love to see her. But I may be waiting for years.

I still have not been able to see Bella in person, and it made me a little happy that I didn't have to deal with her. Whenever she would be coming over, someone else would take me out to do something where no other humans would be. I was thankful honestly. I wasn't ready to be around her.

After I woke as a vampire my blood lust was bad, and smell could make me tick. The others still think I could snap into a blood frenzy at any moment. So they were helping me stay away from humans. But drinking from humans or animals didn't seem all that appealing to me.

Of course I wouldn't know what would happen if a human started bleeding around me. And with me being a newborn it probably wouldn't end too well. If Bella came near me I don't think I could be held responsible for what I would do to her. So I rather she stay far away from me.

My mates had taken me out hunting everyday since I changed. Each of them teaching me how to overtake other animals. I felt bad every time I killed the innocent creatures. But I also had to survive, and if drinking from the animals was the best way not to hurt people; then that would be what I would do.

I know it hasn't been that long since my change. But I can say with full confidence that being a vampire is fucking awesome. I'm stronger than ever before, I could lift a car in each hand without my powers if I wanted to. Also I am currently the fastest vampire since my human blood still runs faintly beneath my skin. Though it would all be gone soon once I'm out of the newborn phase. I could anywhere within an hour in mere minutes. Seeing the trees and scenery change as I pass by was phenomenal.

I looked so different, but still so much like myself. It was uncanny to say the least. My lips were fuller and pink, they looked kissable if I do say myself. My hair had gotten longer which was unusual, but it was also thicker and looked darker than before, healthy. My skin had dropped a few shades of white making me paler. My freckles were basically gone, you could only see them if you looked for them. I had also gotten skinnier, my baby fat was all gone and there was nothing but smooth and lean skin. I didn't have abs, but my stomach was flat as a surfboard.

The weirdest thing for me was my eyes. I think they were top tier. They were red of course because I am a fresh vampire. But when I used my powers there was a swirl of gold speckles that would float around the pupils. It was kind of badass.

On top of all of this my powers had peaked even more. Instead of being able to control my gifts through my fingertips and eyes. I could use any inch of my body, even just my mind. But the bad thing was, that I had to learn how to control them again. Since I have more strength now I had to be more in control than ever. We figured that out real quick when I levitated just to reach a book on the book shelf and flew through the ceiling. Esme is still fixing that.

It gave me a sense of relief to know I kept my powers. If I would have stayed human the rest of my life, I would have aged out of them. But now that I am immortal, my powers will flow under my marble like skin for eternity. My gifts gave me comfort, I don't know who I'd be without them. I don't even remember how I was before them.

Do you want to know the worst thing about becoming a vampire? The one thing that doesn't seem the slightest bit fare.

It's that we stay the same height. I'm stuck at five foot three for the rest of eternity. It was not fair in any way. You would think with how vampirism alters your DNA and makes you a better version of what you were, that it could add a little height onto your body....

Alice and Rosalie had taught me how to act more human for when I can go around them. But i don't really need their help. It wasn't that long ago when I was a human, it feels like it was just yesterday.

I chuckle a little at my thoughts. But the teaching didn't take too long. I liked to think I was a pro at being a normal human....okay...semi-normal.

Blink
Slouch
Breath
Repeat

Not too hard if you ask me.

Emmett claims he found it then most fun to hunt with me. So we are the two that typically go out together. He had always been one of the more fun people to be around. I enjoyed running off with him into the woods. Even if eating Bambi made me want to cry.

Not that I could if I wanted too.

As time changes and I myself grow. We will just have to see where the wind takes me. I wished for it to never blow me off track. Because the people here are my home.

Home isn't a place.

It's the people.