𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶? neteyamxaonung

A Destructive Stranger!

|🌟|Neteyam POV:

- I woke up pretty late in the morning, I had nightmares over nightmares and overall I felt horrible and so fucking lonely while falling asleep, I didn't get why, just why he would overreact like this, IT IS, my fault, I took full guilt of me forgetting about something really important In a relationship, like a date, our first date.

It's just that? Why is it so hard for us, to get along, what happened with the joy and butterflies I get every time I see him, every time he touches him, or every time I touch him. I love that feeling I never felt that, and I would never let go of it,

But at the same time, we have never really, been a couple. right? I see couples out there, even my sister with her boyfriend, Rotxo, They seem so happy, they never fight or let others see it if they did, I don't why they can do that and we can't.

They are publicly out there for anyone to see them, tho.

While me and Aonung, are just? Strangers in the stranger's eyes, just two different boys from different types of na'vi species, that have nothing to do together but a fight here and there, and that feels wrong. SO wrong I get why he wanted us to be more than just a secret for each other,

I get why he wants to be free from me, from what I asked him to be.

But at the same time, I can't imagine a world where my family would know about- us, about me getting on a date with a GUY mostly the literal son of the chief himself, I can't picture their reactions, to my family, of my siblings, or their faces,

Tuk is too young to understand this complication, but the rest? Oh no.

Not even to add that right now, for at least for some days now I have to take care of Lo'ak, mostly after what kind of episode he had, I can't go around going back at Aonung telling him I will be there when he needs me and that I will never choose my family over him because that's just a straight up lie, something he would want to hear,

I'm not leaving my family for anyone, ever.

But I want him to understand that I don't want to lose him, but what we are, what we have together for some months now, is something special, I love this, I love everything we do together but is that worth neglecting my family? like our parents do because of work?

Do my siblings deserve this...?

They don't.

I'm being selfish.

I can't escape this, I have no solution, I deeply care for Aonung, like I fucking deeply care for my family, but when it comes to choosing? That's something else, I can't choose,

But I have to.

My siblings need a big caring brother who can be there when they need a shoulder to cry on, mostly after we leave our home, our safety they need me now more than ever,

And what we have is a phase, from the start it only was about getting pleased by one another, that sexual tension, and we did that, we got over that I guess, but if we got over that, what if we're getting just bored of each other since there's no tension anymore, we fight, we want things from each other that are not possible to happen mostly in such short time, And I don't have time,

I don't have time for anything, mostly a relationship, a healthy one, a loving one, I don't have time to be that caring lovely boyfriend who will drop any activities he has to hang out with the other, mostly when it's something as bad as what happened with Lo'ak.

Our relationship didn't start healthy it didn't start as most relationships start with feelings first and then the things we already do,

I can't do this, I have to make a choice, I can't disappoint my family, I can't make myself time for something that only matters to me and avoid everything my siblings have to deal with...

And I knew I was right the moment I opened the door of my room, and if last morning I was met with a chair leg almost hitting my head, now, I meet Lo'ak with his head on the table, just like that, he looked dead.

" Lo'ak? " I said, as I slowly approached him, pressing a small pat on his shoulder, he got himself up, his head, so he could look at me, he looked so tired, " Hey! " He added in a playful voice, my face confused, " Hey- What are you doing? Have you eaten anything, " I asked trying to figure out what the hell was going on,

" I'm good! I'm ewya, Of course, I'm good! " My face. in that moment, can't be described, " Oh- right- " I said.

" Have you- taken any of Dad's 'wake' drinks? " I asked, he looked at me weirdly, and then nodded with a creepy smile on him, " Nope! " And he said that with the happiest tone I ever heard, I sighed so deeply,

Exactly what I was talking about.

" Alright, baby bro, Let's get you to bed, " I added pulling his arm, He almost fell off the chair, " Noo! I'm so fine and sober! " I giggled in stress. and continued walking with his arm over my shoulder as I tried not to drop him while we walked to his room, " I know, I know- " I added as he started laughing slightly,

" Are we having a SLEEPING PARTY? " He added as we just entered the room, I smiled for a bit, trying to sound as calm as I could and try and match that fake happiness of his, " Hell yeah! " I added as he 'YOOHOO' his way while jumping in the bed so happy, " Yeah, in this part you have to put this blanket over you and hit ur head to that pillow " I pointed.

And he did that.

" AWSOME! "

I smiled, closing all the lighting of the room, and putting some blinds over the window, pretty dark for almost, almost, lunchtime. " And now you have to close your eyes, I'll be back with the PARTYY," I said with a laugh, He closed his eyes, " FUCK YEAH, BRO YOU'RE SO- " He dropped dead to sleep, snoring already.

And as I said before,

I have to be a brother now, not a boyfriend. More than anything,

I have to break up with Aonung.

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- DRAMAAA (I'm currently traumatised with the ep8 s2 from Helluva Boss, alr? I HAVE TOO!), BUT UM YEAH, we need that angst now, YOU'RE WELCOME! 😋

⚠️ALCOHOL - !! wake' drinks !! - It's like, literally? some kind of alcoholic drink but na'vi ones, idk how is that possible, maybe they used WHALE pee? idk, man.

(DON'T FORGET TO VOTE&COMMENT ME YOUR FAVORITE DRINK IF YOU GET HERE!) I've been losing some motivation for some time now, so I needed some drama to sparkle up myself, ig : D)

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