𝘠𝘰𝘶'𝘳𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘴𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘧𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶? neteyamxaonung

Pity Fine

|🌟|Neteyam POV:

- The moment I left the bathroom I very much closed myself in, I noticed the table empty, I heard some noise in Lo'aks room and nothing more, Kiri wasn't to be seen, so I sighed. I only stood like an hour in that bathroom, it wasn't much really, how do they move so fast?

I didn't like their behavior. They were too calm to 'not them' in this situation. I was hiding a literal relationship from them with someone they have hated for such a long time since we were here. They should have been so angry, if not already exploding like an active volcano!

Instead, they were. Fine, more than fine, confused but didn't care, I remember what Tuk said to me a while ago, she was also fine with this but she is young she doesn't see the issues behind what I and Aonung were, what we could have been...

I do want him back.

No. I must think about him no more, I made a decision, I am a warrior for dear ewya! I must control whatever urge I have in me to have this stupid- so handsome guy,

I hate my mind so much sometimes, I just said I didn't want to think about but I somehow always end up too, why is he so hard to get rid of, why can't I let go of this? Of him, of what the fuck he has done to me, what he has made me feel, I need to grow up. Be the perfect son and brother an amazing future husband for my future wife and the best warrior for my family's pride, and mostly for mine. And my fathers.

Aonung was just an obstacle in my way, of this dream I had as a child, I had to put a stop to it, to finally embrace my fate and just stop thinking about him already!

I couldn't look at the two empty plates and somehow almost full plate of mine that stood on the table, of course, none of them bothered to clean up, but I had to. But I didn't want to. I was already sick in the stomach just going near food right now, I simply drank the water that I had in my glass that sat on the table and rushed outside slowly and without noise closing the door behind me, I went right in front of our cabin where the ocean was, I haven't been swimming for awhile, I need to do something, anything to just fresh my thoughts up, and stop.

I dived in and swam around for a bit, at some point I called my ilu so he could pick me up, I just went with a moderate peace and traveled along the sea not too far away but pretty near, I slowly started to realize different people swimming around, so either the sun was almost fully out or these reef people just enjoy doing their stuff in cold water, either way, it was getting crowded so I headed to the nearest land I have found,

I went up and sent my Ilu back as we got to some kind of small bridge I picked myself up using my arms and stepped on the wooden thing, squeezing some water from my hair, and looked up, the sun was indeed up, somehow, I might have lost some time as I swam around, it did help, I did not think about anything just the stuff I seen around, nothing else, no disturbance. Hopefully.

I walked towards the sand where the bridge normally would have started, and noticed two familiar faces, my face lit up as they approached me, and I waved back as they both did as well, kind of smiling, " Neteyam! Hi! " Ela added, as she greeted me with a friendly hug, I happily returned it, " Hi, I haven't seen you two in so long, what happened? " I asked both Ela and Ran at the same time they looked at each other as Ela gave me an awkward smile, " Nothing much, we just, Ran's family wanted to leave for some kind of trip their family fought with the chief, and we just didn't hangout anymore " I nodded pretty worried, " Is everything fine now? Sorry to hear that " I added quickly as Ran smiled at me, I smiled back at them,

" I am, they sorted it out, it just, it's been a rough time for me " Ran explained, as Ela suddenly looked at them and started smiling looking back at me, " Yeah, but they did have the best girlfriend to help them out! " She winked at me, I saw Ran's face red up as they punched Ela's shoulder, " The best- OH! " It finally clicked to me.