yin and yang ― ɴᴀᴛꜱᴜ ᴅʀᴀɢɴᴇᴇʟ

➷ EPISODE SEVENTY FOUR.

[ EPISODE SEVENTY FOUR ]

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"here." she walked over, handing him a can of a drink that she had gotten off of one of the street vendors who were dotted around crocus. the two had been walking around in a comfortable silence after the moment they had shared at hatsumi's grave. although maya had played the scene in her head a million times prior to it happening, she still couldn't believe natsu now knew too. her emotions were all over the place as she struggled to understand what she was even feeling ― there was a sense of relief that he wasn't completely appalled at the fact that they almost had a child together, although that was an irrational fear that had no chance of coming true. however, the lingering sadness that they both felt from losing the chance to hold their first child in their arms was bittersweet as they could only imagine how different life would be if she had survived. 

"i didn't ask you," natsu suddenly began as maya opened her can and took a large swig of the drink, the both of them sat on the fountain's edge in the middle of crocus as people walked past and continued their life as normal. "when did you know?" he asked her, catching her attention as she looked over at him. her face suddenly flushed red as he stared at her in confusion, watching as her eyes darted away suddenly before their gazes met.

"it was a couple of weeks after we returned from ceran." she answered quietly. "the night we... did it for the first time was the day she was conceived." her face was flushed red in embarrassment as they both recalled that night, even natsu's cheeks were dusted pink as he remembered that night clearly. 

he cleared his throat before continuing. "do you regret what we did? i mean... if we hadn't done it that night, then you wouldn't have to go through that. what am i even saying, i even left you to it completely alone, so―"

"i don't regret it." maya cut him off, holding the can in her two hands as her thumbs ran along the rim. a sigh escaped her lips. "i don't regret that night. i don't regret that i was pregnant, but... i wish i had done a better job at protecting her." she admitted, nodding her head solemnly. natsu's hand reached over and clasped around the two that lay in her lap, holding the can. 

"maya you did everything you could, don't beat yourself up over something that was out of your control." however, his words were lost in the air as she shook her head.

"i knew that using my powers would put her at risk," she absentmindedly placed a hand over her stomach, the strange sensation that she had felt that day replaying within her senses. "warrod had told me that my grandfather didn't transfer the souls to my mother when it was her turn because she was pregnant with me, and they didn't know what would happen to her, when all the predecessors had never been able to control the power and they had all been male." she began explaining. "at that point, i already had hatsumi growing inside of me, and i had the two souls ― i thought i would be fine since i had control over them with no problem, but..." she trailed off, unable to finish her sentence.