yin and yang ― ɴᴀᴛꜱᴜ ᴅʀᴀɢɴᴇᴇʟ

➷ EPISODE EIGHTEEN.

[ EPISODE EIGHTEEN ]

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"maya! hey, maya!" my eyes fluttered open, blinking a few times as it adjusted to the sudden bright light. 

"where am i?" i peered around with my eyes at the unfamiliar place, figuring it was someone's bedroom. i remembered falling asleep on the floor of mine, but this definitely wasn't my apartment.

"finally." a voice sighed, catching my attention as i turned my head to the right. i was surprised to see natsu, lucy, erza, gray and happy all looking over me, standing a little too close to my body that lied flat in a bed. my eyes widened, overwhelmed by the five of them just staring down at me with smiles and tears in their eyes. "do you know how worried i was!?"

erza smacked the back of natsu's head, causing him to whine in protest as he held his head in pain. "be quiet, she just woke up." she scolded the dragon slayer, the boy pouting as he nodded his head. i opened my mouth to say something, but nothing came out. my throat suddenly felt tight as i bit my lower lip, feeling the tears silently pour out.

"now look what you've done." gray scolded as the pinkette began panicking. i lifted my arm, hiding my face with my forearm as i could only cry. i couldn't think of any words as i only craved one feeling, death.

"does something hurt? should we bring poryluscia-san back?" lucy questioned, worry clear in her tone.

"i don't think it's the wounds on her body that hurt," erza mumbled, noticing the change in her best friend's emotions. she placed her hand on natsu's shoulder, whispering something in his ear before ordering the others to follow her out of lucy's house. since the guild was still being rebuilt, there was no infirmary to keep the injured, so i was brought here instead.

there was a silence between the two as i continued to cry, biting my lip to stop the sob from escaping my throat as i hid my face from natsu. i felt my arm being gently pulled back, finally opening my eyes to face the boy who looked right back at me with a melancholic expression.

"why did you ask gajeel to do that?" he asked the question that had been on the back of his mind for the past five days. he could barely focus on anything, waiting patiently for me to wake up to finally ask what had been burning the tip of his tongue. i pursed my lips, turning away as i looked out the window. 

its so sunny today. 

a day like this would always make me smile, but i could only cry helplessly. "maya, why..." he trailed off, struggling to repeat the words he had heard. "why do you want to die?" i felt a throb at the back of my head, different to the ones i usually had as nausea suddenly overtook my senses. i held a hand to my mouth, sitting up to balance myself out and get rid of the sudden dizziness. "what? what is it?" natsu panicked, standing from the chair as he place a hand on the small of my back, trying to help me. i pressed my free hand against his chest, pushing him away as i curled away from his touch.