Him Again (Bakugou Katsuki x Reader)

60. Tears

You opened your eyes. The bright hospital light was shining down into your eyes. You looked around. Nobody was there.

You tried to stand up but you couldn't. Everything hurt. But there was only one thing on your mind. Nico.

You began sobbing. The wound on your neck was throbbing as the sobs racked through your chest. But you couldn't stop it.

You prayed it was just a bad dream. You prayed that everything was just your imagination. You prayed that Nico was dead. But you knew he wasn't.

You didn't even notice that Katsuki had walked into the room. "Y/N?" He said as he gently took you into his arms. "What's wrong? What hurts?"

"Katsu....!" You were so glad he was fine but you couldn't stop crying. Everything was hurting. You looked at him. He was covered in bruises. Bandages wrapped around his shoulder that was in a sling but he was struggling and hugging you even so.

Immense guilt was hitting you. He was hurt because of you. You weren't strong enough. You let yourself get kidnapped and everyone else had to pay for it. God, you wondered how much more damage you had done to others.

"Y/N..?" He looked at you, confused. He didn't understand what exactly was wrong but he knew he had to be there for you.

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Three days had passed since you had regained consciousness. You were back at home with Katsuki.

You were numb. Katuski couldn't figure out what was wrong. He tried to ask you multiple times but you refused to talk to him about it, and brushed it off.

He knew the incident was bound to traumatize you. Being drugged and experimented upon had to be scarring. But he was concerned that you weren't talking about it at all with him. He knew it probably wasn't easy to speak about it but he expected you to say something at the least.

You would just brush it off and give short answers when he asked about it but that wasn't it. He could tell there was something else. You were hiding something from him.

"Can you just talk to me?" Katsuki said that night in hopes of getting you to finally open up. He had walked into your room to find you asleep but you were tossing and turning and crying in your sleep.
"It's nothing, really. I'm alright. Just go to sleep." You replied, trying to get him to leave.

He sighed. "Y/N...." He gritted his teeth. "Please please please just tell me why you're being like this."

Your breath caught up in your throat. "Just go." You pleaded. "You don't want to be with someone like me, Katsuki."

His eyes widened. "What the fuck are you talking about?"
"I-... Katsuki- I'm-" you could feel tears welling in your eyes. You couldn't say it.

He cupped your face. "I love you..."
"Don't-..."
"Don't love you?"
You shook your head.
"Okay." He squeezed his eyes shut and pretended to concentrate. "Sorry, can't do it. Just tried." He shrugged.

You would've giggled otherwise but you just couldn't. He wrapped his arms around you. You could hear his bandages crunching under his sleeve. It was hurting him to hug you like that but he was doing it even so. Katsuki was badly injured. Mirio lost his quirk. Sir Nighteye was dead.

"It's all my fault...." You cried. You began telling him about your brother, about your parents death and how Overhaul had conducted experiments on you and the torture you had to go through.

He stared at you in shock. You expected him to shun you. You were the sister of a villain, a psychopath. You thought he would be disgusted or leave you now that he knew.

After you were done, rage coarsed through his veins. He held you in his arms as you sobbed desperately. His heart broke for you. He couldn't believe you had been harbouring such a heavy burden on your back all this time.

What happened to you was unacceptable. His ears rang with rage. Taking down Overhaul was not good enough. He was filled with pure vengeance. He was willing to do absolutely anything to stop you from hurting. Fuck. He could never forgive them. Never in a million years. He swore to himself that he would get you your revenge even if it was the last thing he did.

"It's not your fault, Y/N. I swear it's not. You're the one that saved me, remember? If it wasn't for that punch you had thrown, I would've been dead by now. You're the one that saved that little girl. If you think I would ever stop loving you because of something like this, you're mental." He said.

You sighed. "T-thats not it...." you said. "Katsuki. You don't want to be with me. Overhaul took my quirk away. I'm quirkless. I can't become a hero."

He stared at you in shock. "Y-You what?"
"I'm a quirkless loser. You don't want to love someone like me." Tears were streaming down your face.

He just stared at you blankly. You couldn't take it anymore. You broke free of his grasp and began running out. But before you could leave, you felt his hand grab your wrist. Without hesitation, he wrapped his arms around you.

"Are you fucking crazy?" He said. "Of course I fucking love you. I don't care if you're quirkless or handicapped or deaf or blind or dumb. You're still you. I can't be without you..." He said, blushing. It was so hard for him to say such words out loud.

"Katsu-" you choked out and he felt tears forming in his eyes.
"Fuck- shut up. Don't make me say it again. I promise I'll protect you, Y/N. I'll never leave you alone ever again. I swear I won't let you get hurt." You slowly turned around to face him to look for any signs of doubt but you were almost taken aback by the determination in his eyes. He wasn't kidding. He was completely serious about everything.

You wrapped your arms around him. "God, I love you so much." You sobbed. He hugged you tighter.

"Now shh." He cradled your face in his hands. "Don't cry. Tears don't suit you."

"Tears dont suit me?" You chuckled. It was a foreign sound. Something you hadn't heard in a while.
"No. Your face is too god damn pretty for them."

He kissed your forehead and wiped away your tears, smiling at you warmly. You could feel it healing you. There was something so comforting about his presence. Suddenly, you felt okay again. His words had washed your previous beliefs away  within seconds. You so strongly blamed yourself but when he said it wasn't your fault you believed it without a single doubt. It was as though you were in a trance when he was with you. And suddenly you just felt something you hadn't felt in such a long time. Happiness. You felt okay again.

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