Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Phoenix POV:

It took a couple of weeks for me to finally feel like myself again after what both me and Uncle Jackson had done to those two witches. I'm not sure why it affected me so much of what we did or, more importantly, how we had done it, that was until after I got done talking to both my dad and my mom.

They explained to me that I am  not an evil being, nor do I have an evil bone in my body, but after I had tortured the two witches, I began questioning myself and whether what I had been told all my life was a lie, but after talking to both of them I started feeling better and realized that if I didn't question myself that would have shown that I was evil.

I sighed and thanked both of them for explaining to me that even those with the purest hearts and soul sometimes feel they need to do something a little savage or evil if it'll protect those they love.

For the first time in weeks, I was able to fully relax and smile a genuine smile, which, from what my dad told me, makes him and the others truly happy that I am started to become myself again.

I can honestly tell you, I don't know if I will ever be able to do what I had done to those two witches ever again,  but then again I do not know what the future holds or how it will continue to shape me and those I love.

'What's wrong, my lovely mate?' Roswell asked me.

I shook my head, sighed heavily, and snuggled up to Roswell but chose not to answer him, mainly because I didn't know how to answer him.

Lately, I have had so many thoughts running through my head, but none of them make any sense, yet they make perfectly sense, which causes me to groan often, feeling another headache coming on.

'My beautiful mate, I can feel that something is wrong'. 'Tell me what is bothering you, maybe I can help'. Roswell linked me softly through our link. I sighed once again but decided this time to tell him how I'm feeling or how I am trying to handle how I am feeling.

"I'm not exactly sure how I am feeling, Roswell." "Everything that had happened up abd after what both Uncle Jackson and I did to those two witches I felt okay with, until just recently." "I feel as though I took it too far or maybe not far enough." "I have all these scrambled thoughts in my mind that us giving me a headache, abd I thought after talking to my dad and my mom I would feel better,  which I did at the time, but the headaches only increased and I'm starting to doubt I handled those witches properly". I huffed out, taking in a deep breath to try and calm my breathing.

'Oh, my lovely mate, you handled them perfectly'. 'Don't you ever feel as though you handled them wrongly'. 'I have to tell you, though, i am glad they are finally taken care of, and I can finally hold you in my arms without the smell of their blood on you'. Roswell linked me, and I laughed  little at his last statement. Honestly, I am actually glad I no longer smell of their blood, too.

I snuggled up against Roswell even closer and geld him tighter listening to his steady heartbeat. It felt nice to finally to be held by  both of my mate's in our bed in my room at my pack house. It's been so long since we all three just stayed cuddled up in bed together, ignoring everyone and everything outside my bedroom.

'I can't wait til Blaze gets back.' 'He's been gone all day helping his parents at their house.' Roswell linked me sounding sad. I chuckled a little at words because both Roswell and Blaze had spent almost every waking moment with each other over the past three months while I was dealing with the two witches in the dungeon. 

I would leave before either one of them woke up, and most of the time, I would return to my room after both of them had already fallen asleep. I sighed as quietly as I could, not wanting Roswell to hear me. Unfortunately, he had thanks to how close we are snuggled up to each other, but Roswell didn't say anything he just tightened his arms around me and held me closer to him, which I was happy for.

"Blaze, when are you coming back." I linked him trying to get my mind off of the thoughts running through my mind.

'Not sure.' 'Why what's up?' He said, asking me.

"Just wondering." I linked him back.

'As soon as I'm on my way back I'll link you both.' He said i nodded my head even though he couldn't see me, so I decided to link him back.

"Okay." I linked him back and closed our link.

"Roswell, how about we take a nap while we wait for Blaze to come back?" I asked him. I watched as he nodded his head. I nodded my head also, cuddling closer to him and closed my eyes.

I'm not sure how long I had slept for, but when I woke up, I woke up in bed alone. The side Roswell was laying on was cold, so I knew he had to have gotten up hours ago, which made me a little sad, I have been getting sad a lot lately especially after what had happened in the dungeons. I sighed heavily not wanting to dwell on it, I quickly got up off the bed and heading to the bathroom to freshen up before heading downstairs in hopes to find my mate or mate's if Blaze is back.

Yes, I know. I know I can search for them both through our link, but I didn't want to use our link to find them. Besides, it's fun to actually go look for them.