Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Balzes POV:

I mind linked Roswell as I walked back to the pack house to let him know that I was returning and that I needed to talk to both him and Phoenix. I know what you all are thinking why didn't I mind link Phoenix myself and tell him. Well, the truth is I tried. I tried to mind like with Phoenix to tell him myself, but he has me blocked that why I mind liked Roswell so that he can pass on the message to our mate. After getting the okay from Roswell I closed the mind like and started walking faster towards the pack house, hopefully I can get there before it's too dark out, not that I can't see in the dark being a werewolf and all, but I wanted to try and settle everything with both Phoenix and Roswell as soon as possible. They both deserve a mate that does not keep things from them.

I sighed and started walking faster and faster as soon as I seen the pack house in view. 

'Phoenix says meet us in the cabin.' Roswell linked me. I nodded even though he can see.

'Okay.' I replied.

Not sure how this is going to go but I really do hope that it turns out for the best. Call me selfish but I really do hope that neither one of my mates rejects me or the other and that over time Phoenix can forgive me my stupid, reckless and selfish behavior.

'Blaze remember to tell the truth no matter how painful or hurtful it is. Phoenix and even Roswell deserves the full truth, besides if you lie it'll just be another reason for phoenix to be mad at you because I am almost positive, he has already known about the reason for your reckless youthful behavior and poor judgment.' I heard my father say through our bond. I groan realize that my dad had told my father where I was going and why.

I knew once I told my dad that I wanted to make up for all the mistakes I made with Phoenix that my dad would tell my father, but I was hoping it would have been after I at leased talk to my mates first. I sighed as soon as I reached the cabin that both of my mates are wait for me. I took deep breaths trying to calm myself before I knocked on the door, I'm not sure why I am so nervous, no that's not right I know exactly why I am nervous, this talk could either cost me one if not both of my mates.

'Moon Goddess give me strength please.' I begged the Moon Goddess as I knocked on the door and waited nervously for one of my mates to answer the door.

'Come in Blaze.' I heard Roswell yell through the door. I nodded my head trying to clear my mind as I walked to the cabin, that we started calling home after Phoenix woke up a few months back and seemed to have turned into a completely different wolf.

'Have seat Blaze, we will be with you a moment.' I heard Roswell yell from somewhere in the cabin. I sighed and sat on the same couch in the living room.

'Okay.' I replied trying to calm my nerves as I wait for my mates to come from what I figured was the kitchen after calming myself I was able to smell the delicious aroma of freshly baked desserts. Smiling to myself I remember when Phoenix and I were kids we were always in the kitchen with the head Omega learning how to bake breads and desserts. The Omega asked why an Alpha would want to learn how to bake and Phoenix smiled and said I want my mate to be happy with my cooking. I was happy with his statement, but I never took his words to heart, that is until right now, remembering his words. A sharp pang hit my heart, making my wolf Nezm howl because of me and my selfish ways we have missed all of Phoenix baking and cooking.

'It's all your fault I missed out on our mate.' My wolf growled in my head. I just nodded agreeing with him, because he is right. When I was with whatever supernatural I bedded for the day, he would mentally check out and refused to let me shift unless it was required by our Alpha. I should have learned my lesson, but nope I didn't learn my lesson until Phoenix already had another mate and wanted me to reject him.

Well, I guess we had already had another mate, but yea once Roswell came in the picture, I realized I was losing my mate and calm me selfish, but I never actually intended to reject Phoenix at least not wholeheartedly. Yes, I know I am selfish, but I truly never intended to reject Phoenix.

I heard footsteps coming towards me bringing me out of my memories. I smiled sadly looking at both my smiling happy mates. (Maybe it is best I have both reject me, they seem to be happier without me being here) I thought to myself gaining a growl from Nezm. 'You will do no such thing, we are here to regain our mates, and you will do everything both mates say to get the back.' Nezm gritted out through our link, I internally nodded my head agreeing with him, he is right I have been a coward and hid, but now it is time to regain my mates.

"Now that we are seated comfortably why don't we get this over with so that we can decide what we are going to do going forward." Phoenix said softly, sitting next Roswell on the larger couch across from. 

'First I want to apologize to the both of you.' 'The way I have been acting is and has been uncalled for.' 'I might have been going through some stuff, that I will admit that I had caused myself, but that does not give me the right to continue to act like a spoiled child, especially with my mates.' I rushed out apologizing to my mates.