Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Phoenix POV:

It took about five hours for the pain I was feeling to finally subside. While I was trying to figure out why I was in pain, I tried to reach not only Cypress but also Roswell to no avail.

I finally gave up after my dad linked me asking if I'm okay. I told him everything and also that the pain I'm feeling isn't like the pain I felt when Nezm had cheated on me.

My dad said it might be because my wolf is heartbroken cause his mate decided to follow his friend instead of us. After thinking about what my dad had said it could explain why I am not able to connect with Cypress right now.

I sighed heavily after disconnecting the link with my dad.

"I'm sorry Cypress". I whispered to him.

'I'm sorry too'. Cypress said.

After his reply I felt relieved that we have fully lost our connection, we are both just hurting. But instead of comforting each other we are distancing ourselves.

'I just feel like our mate's don't truly want us'. 'I feel as though it is my fault'. Cypress whispered through our link. I nodded agreeing with him.

'DON'T YOU EVER FEEL LIKE IT'S YOUR FAULT'!! I heard my father growl through our link. I lowered my head nodding, but not really agreeing with what my father said.

How can it not be my fault?

I have two mate's, two mate's whom have clearly chosen others as their priority.

Two mate's whom clearly see me as an unimportant thing, creature, mate in their lives.

I sighed as I felt a tear roll down my cheeks. I just wanted to change into my night clothes and sleep and wish today never happened. Unfortunately I don't feel tired and today did happen.

I laid on my bed in a ball begging for sleep, after a couple hours I realized I wasn't going to be granted sleep. Just one more thing I'm not being granted today. I readjusted myself on my bed trying to find a comfortable spot just so I can get a few hours of sleep.

A knock on my door stopped me from continuing my restless moving, my heart beat increased and my breath from the scent coming from the door. I pretended I was asleep on my bed, I didn't want to talk to my mate right now, and yes I know I shouldn't hide from my mate, but beings my wolf, Cypress still is not in the mood to even talk to me, I doubt he would want to talk to his mate right now.

I sighed quietly after Roswell's scent began to fade, which meant he decided to walk away from my door.

'I'm sorry'. I heard Cypress say sadly. I nodded my head in understanding.

For a wolf to not want to be near his mate, usually only means one thing.

The connection.

The mate bond.

The mate pull.

Somehow became strained.

"Cypress". I called out to him through our link. I heard him hum in response.

"No matter what, we will get through this". "Our bond will always be strong no matter how strained it feels right now". I whispered through our link. I heard him once again then put up the block linker. I sighed knowing it was time to try and find sleep. No matter what is happening, I came here to be the best Alpha I can be.

'You do know with our mate being the prince of the werewolves, we won't be any ordinary Alpha right'? Cypress said. I laughed a little at his sassy comment and smiled knowing that with our mate not that far away he is already feeling better.

"No matter our title we will always be an Alpha". I told him, laying down and getting comfortable ready to sleep.

'True'. Cypress said, again blocking our link so I can reply.

I found sleep shortly after getting comfortable, but was woken up suddenly by the presence in my room. The scent of the 'guest' was both unfamiliar yet very familiar at the same time. I tried to figure out whom it was but my mind was drawing a blank.

'It's okay my dear'. 'I am here only to talk to you'. 'No need to feel nervous'. The elegant soft voice said. A tingling sensation ran throughout my brain sensing the familiarity of not just the presence but their voice.

'Roswell I am only in your head'. The soft voice said. I nodded not really understanding, but if I'm being honest with myself nothing about today has made any sense.

'I only came to your dream because you called out to me'. The voice said softly.

"How did I call you while I am asleep"? I asked the voice.

'You didn't but your wolf Cypress did. The voice said.

'Moon Mother'. Cypress said almost to quiet for even me his human to hear.

I gasped not understanding how I couldn't figure out the presence I felt was our Moon Goddess.

'Roswell it is okay'. The Moon Goddess said. I nodded my head, but in truth I do not agree with her. She is our one and only Moon Goddess how could I not know whom she was.

'Roswell and Cypress, you both have to give Roswell and Midnight time to understand what their long time best friend had done'. 'I am not telling you to forgive him right away, but as the other of your whole you truly will feel incomplete without each other'. Our Moon Goddess said.

"I know". I told her lowering my head. I remember my dad telling me how my father had messed up really bad, but instead of my dad walking away he chose to stay and fight. I

I am willing to fight for my mate, but I am always willing to let my mate go if they truly feel the need to leave.

I want what my parents have, but I always want a reliable mate.

'I understand'. The Moon Goddess said before disappearing from my dreams.