Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Roswell's POV:

I am beyond pi$$ed with both of my mate's, but I'm more pi$$ed with Blaze than I am with Phoenix.

Why, you might ask? Well, because Phoenix had already told me the real reason behind Blaze refusing to acknowledge their mate bond, but instead of telling Blaze, he knew he wanted Blaze to tell him his self. Which if everyone knows Phoenix, like they say they do, and that even includes Blaze already knows that he already knew his reason behind him refusing to accept the bond between them also.

That is the main reason I am pi$$ed at Blaze because he has told me on numerous occasions that he knows Phoenix better than I do, or ever will knowhim, yet he doesn't stop to think that Phoenix already knows the reason for him to not rejecting him, but ignoring their mate bond and trying to get out of telling him the real reason.

I just wish they would talk about everything and get this tension over with so that we can finally become a truly bonded mated couple.

Just thinking of their stupidly, especially Blaze's stupidly, gives not only a headache but also a headache.  Honestly, if it comes down to it, I will follow whatever path Phoenix chooses even if it leads us to rejecting Blaze. I would prefer not to reject any of my mates, and yes, I do and have been connecting with Blaze to help strengthen our mate bond, but I am definitely closer to Phoenix and our bond is definitely stronger, I'm unfortunately in a tough spot, but until Blaze comes clean to Phoenix I will be with Phoenix to help him heal just like I did when he came to the Alpha Academy and I found him as my mate.

I sighed heavily and walked back into the room where Phoenix is sleeping, well trying to sleep, not actually sleeping.

'Phoenix, come on wake up I brought you lunch.' I slightly shook Phoenix trying to get him to sit up, because like I said before he wasn't really sleeping just trying to.

"I'm not hungry." Phoenix said.  I shook my head not excepting him not wanting to eat.

'Too bad, I can hear your stomach growl.' 'If do not want to eat I will ask my mother to get a hold of your dad and you know how Luna Larry is when it comes to you.' I explained.

I heard him sigh and sat up.

"Give me the food." He grumpily said. I chuckled and handed him his food. I knew he would eat after mentioning his dad. I smiled as I watched him eat unhappily.  He could be so stubborn when he wants to be.

"Stop staring." Phoenix grumpily whispered with a mouth full of food. I just shook my head and chuckled at him.

"Why haven't you gone to see Blaze lately?" Phoenix asked after he swallowed his food. I sighed, not knowing how to answer him. Truthfully, I have wanted to go see Blaze and try and talk to him about coming clean to Phoenix, but right now, I feel as though Phoenix needs me more. I can feel the hurt he is feeling more than I can feel Blaze's pain.

No, I'm not entirely ignoring Blaze because he is my mate and the mate bond is pulling me towards him so we can talk, but my wolf wants to be with Phoenix more and until my wolf is satisfied with his need to be with Phoenix and Phoenix alone I will continue to stay by Phoenix side.

I sighed heavily and decided to answer Phoenix before he gets upset with me for not answering his question.

'I will be staying with you until I feel that you are feeling better.' 'Do not think for one second that I am choosing you over him, but in all way I kind of am, because I can feel your pain and hurt more than I can feel Blaze's.' 'Besides, I've known you longer, and also, our bond is stronger, and like I said before, I feel the need to be closer to you right now.' I tried to explain to Phoenix,  but got tongue tied while trying to explain to him the reason why.

For some reason I felt a lost of words and reasoning. It was a strange feeling to have especially around Phoenix.

"It's okay with me if you want to go check on your mate." Phoenix said almost to quiet if I wasn't a wolf l would have missed it.

'No, Phoenix, like I said before, I am here for you until I feel as though you are truly okay, and no hiding or faking your feelings to make me feel that you are okay when we both know you are not and won't be for awhile.' I explained to him.

"I promise no more hiding or faking my emotions or my feelings for either one of your two okay." Phoenix said. I nodded happily with his explanation.

'I will go see Blaze for a moment after you fall fully asleep and not just your kinda sleeping that is actually not sleeping.' I told him.

"Why are you waiting for me to fall asleep before you go to see Blaze?" Phoenix asked me. I shrugged my shoulders but answered him anyway.

'I will go see him after you are asleep so I have a reason to hurry up and get back to you to make sure you stay asleep to get a good night's sleep which is something you truly need right now.' I told him.

I watched as Phoenix nodded his head.

"I understand." Phoenix said.

I sat next to Phoenix as we talked about random things and laughed while he finished his food.

After Phoenix finished eating he laid comfortably on our bed and began to fall asleep. I waited for about twenty minutes before I decided to take Phoenix tray to the kitchen and then go find Blaze so we can talk before I head back to our room.