Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Blaze's POV:

I have been home going on a month now, maybe a month and a half. I cannotreallyremember, but both Phoenix and Roswell still believe I'm at the Alpha Academy (and no one has told them that I am back yet). I finished Alpha training shortly after going to the Alpha Academy, mainly because I was only sighed up for one class, and that was just the understanding of Alpha rules and responsibilities. Beings I have been trained along with Uncle Laurent and Uncle Larry's pups, I didn't need the battle training like most newly born Alpha pups.

No, the reason both Phoenix and Roswell do not I am back home is because I am going through what Uncle Larry called mental memory reenactment. Basically, I am reliving all of Phoenix's pain for when I was being intimate with other supernatural creatures instead of accepting Phoenix as my mate and trying to connect with him on a mating level.

I got to tell you it is rough most nights after the memories play back in my mind. I sit up almost all night and cry silently. Of course, I am not doing this alone, hence why both Phoenix and Roswell believe I am still undergoing Alpha training at the Alpha Academy.

My dad, Queen Jackson, Uncle Larry, Luna Larry, to most creature's and aunt Merida, along with Phoenix mom they are helping me go through these heartbreaking moments, and with them neither Phoenix nor Roswell can feel my pain or rather the pain I feel because this is actually Phoenix pain that I am reliving.

Before you ask, no I was not asked to do this as a punishment for hurting Phoenix, I decided to do this after Uncle Larry shared a story about Uncle Laurent forgetting about him, when he was carry their pup's because of a special severed bond pause that the Moon Goddess placed on Uncle Laurent in order to save both Uncle Laurent and Beast. After hearing that story and hearing the pain in Uncle Larry's voice while he told me that story made me realize that Phoenix is most likely still carrying the pain that I caused him around. So, I decided I wanted to experience his pain, which is why I decided to do this memories recollections.

With the help of both Phoenix mom and dad, I am able to block out the pain so that neither of my mates can feel it. With the help of Aunt Merida, I'm able to relieve Phoenix pain as if they were my own. And with the help of my dad, I'm able to lock everything away from my father so that not even he knows what's happening.  It is a path I chose, and I do not want anyone, especially my mates, to interfere until I have a better understanding of what I did to Phoenix and how much pain I caused him.

You may be wondering about my obsession with Phoenix sister, well I should probably clear that up as well.  Yes, once upon a time, I had an unhealthy obsession with Phoenix sister Lia, but after I turned nineteen, I was suddenly over her, not sure why. I never really questioned it, just like I never really questioned why I was so obsessed with her in the first place.  It's weird when I think how I couldn't go a day without needing to see her once, twice, or even three times a day to just not really caring if I see her at all.  I did ask my dad once to help me understand how I could change so quickly, but he just told me to not worry about her and my past obsession and worry about my two mates that are waiting for me to get back home soon.  So I stopped worrying about it. 

Honestly, I still feel a little strange about the whole situation, but my dad is right it's my responsibility to take care of my mates and not worry too much about my past.  I need to focus on them and nothing else. So that's where I stand and the reason I am doing what I am doing now, unfortunately not only is it painful but also very stressful and boring.  It's not boring because I'm making fun of Phoenix's pain, but boring because if I'm not reliving Phoenix's pain, my dad makes me do physical training and Uncle Larry makes me do paperwork that an Alpha or even a Luna would be doing.

I might not have mentioned this before, but I never liked school, which I'm sure anyone could relate to. 

I don't like paperwork, nor do I like physical training.

Yea, I know,  I know it's all part of pack life, but really, I'm not really part of a pack. Both my parents are full blooded vampires, and even the Queen and King of the Vampies.

I know it does not make any sense to argue whether I am part of a pack because my parents had already decided to teach my brother, and I pack life with the help of Uncle Larry and Uncle Laurent.

Truly, I have learned more about werewolf lifestyles than I have the vampire lifestyles.  Not that my dad or father never taught my brother and I. We just spent more time growing up with the werewolves than we did with vampires. I learned from my father that my dad does not really like hanging out with vampires. I asked my father why, and he said it's because the vampires do not approve of my parents' friendship with Uncle Laurent and Uncle Larry.

I'm not sure why because my father would not go into any details, so I stopped asking him. That's why I have learned more about werewolves than I had about vampires. I just wish there was not so much paperwork.  I know it's important to stay physically fit because anything could happen, and I would rather do physical training than sit at a desk and read through all the paperwork on a daily basis.