Phoenix the Rising Alpha

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Blaze's POV:

After about two months of endless torture, I have decided that I have had enough and wanted to return to my mates. I talked to both my parents and uncle Larry and told them it weas time for me to return to the pack house so that I can finish explaining things to my mates and hopefully i can gain both of their forgiveness after I begged them for however long it takes.

I will not tell either of them of the chosen torture I had gone through over these past two months because I do not want either Phoenix or Roswell feel guilty of my choices. I chose this because I truly needed to understand Phoenix' pain, and maybe even Roswell's pain. True Roswell might not have lived through my betrayal like Phoenix did, but I know that Phoenix had explained to him why he chose to go to Alpha Academy two years earlier than his parents had planned for him to do. I still hate myself for the pain I had caused to Phoenix over the years, and I probably will for years to come but at least I know now what true pain and heartbreak and I promised myself to never make either one of my mates, especially Phoenix feel pain ever again.

I might have been a stupid hybrid teenager, but from this moment on I promised I will be the perfect mate to both of mates no matter what gets throwed our way. I know from Uncle Laurent that both Phoenix and Roswell are missing me, and they keep complaining that I have yet to return after finishing up the Alpha course. Thank the Moon Goddess Uncle Laurent told them that I had decided to learn some new combat moves that is why I was staying longer that were told I would be and was able to convince them that I should be returning soon, which of course I was.

'Are you ready?' I heard my dad ask me through my bedroom door. I nodded then quickly stopped remembering he was outside my room.

'Yes.' I simple replied back and opened my door.

'That's good, now remember Phoenix might still be able to read your mind, but with your father, me and Aunt Merida putting a block up around his tortured memories and placed training memories over them, we are hoping that is enough to make Phoenix believe where you have been for the past two months.' 'Unfortunately, though we are not sure if it will work, cause according to both Luna Larry and Phoenix' mom Phoenix' powers are way stronger than either one of theirs.' 'So, let's hope it does hold. My dad explained to me. 

I nodded feeling a little anxious, not because I am afraid of Phoenix finding out, well that's not true I am very afraid of Phoenix finding out, but my fear is more of what if Phoenix finds out and gets upset because he feels as though I invaded his privacy but talking a walk in his memories?' 'What if me finding out the pain I caused him in the past, causes him more pain because I saw all of it?' I was thinking to myself not paying attention to anything my dad was saying until I felt a pull on my shirt bringing me out of my thoughts.

'Sorry, what did you say?' I asked my dad. 

'Nothing really, I just asked if you wanted to eat here or at the pack house, so that I know if you are truly ready to return to the pack house to talk to your mates or if you are going to stay here a little longer and continue to fight with yourself.' My dad said. I nodded at him and smiled. He knows me to well, and as much as I would love to wait here longer, I cannot. My mates have been impatiently waiting for me to return to the pack house and the sooner I get to fully explain and beg forgiveness the quicker I can make up with my mates and hopefully start a real relationship with them.

'As much as I would love to stay here, you know I need to return to the pack house.' 'Besides you know Phoenix better than almost every supernatural creature, except for Uncle Larry and Phoenix mom.' 'You know that if he starts getting impatient, he will go to the Alpha Academy and ask me why am I avoiding him and Roswell?' 'And if I am not there, not only will I be in more trouble with ,y mates, but so will any supernatural creature that has been hiding me.' 'So, no I am not ready to go back, but I have to.' I explained to my dad. I watched as he nodded his head with a slight smile on his face, before telling me that he was proud of me. I smiled back because despite my nerves I am proud of myself too.

'Let's go then.' 'Luna Larry will be heading out right about now, and will be at the pack house about an hour before we show up.' My dad said. I nodded my head and walked out of my room.

'Dad, can I ask you a question?' I asked my dad. I watched as my dad nodded his head, so I took that as a sigh that I could ask him the question that I have always wanted to ask him but never found the right time to ask him.

'Why do you call Uncle Larry, Luna Larry instead of just calling him Larry?' I asked my dad. My dad stopped abruptly and stared at me with a huge smile on his face.

'Why, do you ask?' My dad asked me. I sighed and then answered him.

'Well, it's because no matter what setting we are in you always refer to Uncle Larry to Luna Larry, even though I have heard Uncle Larry tell you many times just to call him Larry.' I explained to him. With a smile still on his face he began to answer my question.

'Son it is because Luna Larry refuses to call me anything other than Queen Jackson even though I have told him many times that we do not need to is our titles when it is just us talking, yet he still calls me Queen Jackson. So, I call him Luna Larry.' My dad explained. I nodded understanding his explanation.

'But sometimes I have heard him call you by just your name.' I told him. My dad hummed agreeing with me. 

'You are right, but that is very few, and when he calls me Jackson, I call him Larry.' 'It's a respect thing.' My dad said.

'I understand now.' I told him and started walking again down the hallway to meet up with Uncle Larry before he left for the pack house.