Elemental: We are all murderers #2

Chapter Forty-Six

Sarah

I'm in Azania's hospital room looking at her on her hospital bed. Nick is sitting on the side of the bed. I feel anxious here and I know that Michael is not going to do well being in hospital again, but I know he's not going to leave Azania. We should have known better.

We shouldn't have let her be by yourself. It's such a hard time. Tony dying really affected her and we should have known that she would have done something like this again. Damn it, I wish that I had done better. I failed her again.

It's not Nick's fault he had no idea what the symptoms were. But I've come to know a little bit about Nick by now. He's definitely blaming himself, just like everybody else is blaming themselves for not knowing better. It sucks, but we're here now.

The doctor said it should take her a few days to become conscious again. God, I hope she's gonna make this. She has to make it for my sake. Please be ok. You have to be ok. After patiently waiting in the hospital for a few hours, it was morning when I arrived.

Now it's late in the evening. Visiting hours are almost over. And I was getting my stuff ready when I hear groaning coming from Azania's bed. "What happened?" She asked in a groggy voice. I spin around faster than I could even think and jump straight into her bed, sobbing.

"Are you insane? How could you do that? You had me so worried, I thought you weren't gonna make it this time." I say through sobs. Azania puts her hand in my hair and starts stroking it gently. She's comforting me while I'm crying on shoulder.

Nick is just standing there waiting for me to get off of her. I'm sure he's as relieved as I am, even though he doesn't express his feelings much. Sky and Natalia have gone out to get food. I should have gone with them, but I didn't. I just couldn't leave Azania's side.

"I'm sorry." She says. "You better be. What were you thinking?" "I wasn't. Everything was just so painful and numb at the same time. I couldn't understand it. Please don't tell my brother he'll blame himself and it's not his fault."

I can't blame her, I understand what she's feeling all too well.  I climb off of her bed. And leave the two of them alone in her hospital room. Then phone Michael, Natalia, Sky and the others. To tell them that she's woken up.

The constant beeping and coughing and just sounds of the hospital make me so anxious. I've never really liked hospitals, not for any particular reason. It just feels like death here. So many people have died here and so many people were born here.

It's a loophole, it's the way of life, but still, I don't like to think about it that often. I don't like violence, blood or anything close to it. I'm just hoping the Azania makes it out of this ok. I know that Nick will take care of her. Despite everything that he's done to her, he's still loves her.

I am pretty sure the reason that he left is a pretty big one. He wouldn't just leave for no reason. I just hope. One day, he'll be willing to tell us. Maybe then I can forgive him. But I won't forgive him until Azania does, that's for sure.