Petals on The Moon || Reyna Ramirez-Arellano x Fem!OC

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This gotta be the dumbest shit Ive done so far.

My sister says this is supposed to help with emotions or wtv so I guess Im gonna try that bc Ive been feeling some typa way lately. It's kinda driving me insane, actually. Maybe because dad's birthday is coming up soon?

I feel like an idiot asking questions to a notebook with blank pages. Suki gave me a spare of hers at the bottom of her ridiculously neat bed. seriously, who the HELL has a bedroom that clean? It makes mine look even more slovenly than it actually is, and my mom NEVER fails to bring it up. Sebastian, clean your bed! Sebastian, Suki's side is so neat! Sebastian, why does this old cup have grey sludge at the bottom?!

It was an EXPERIMENT.

I didnt really care for being back in the legion. Dunno why. military just isnt the way I wanna go with my life. too rigid too annoying too stupid. well, stupid is okay if its FUN stupid. Carrying thirty pounds of armor is NOT fun stupid. just stupid.

everyone is being crazy nice to me, too. Odd. Everyone tells me Im really offputting most of the time and half the time, everyone I know yells at me for being a distraction or being annoying or something. I dont mean like, when reyna or my mom tell me to quiet down. I mean when people in my cohort literally get mad at me because IM trying to have fun and all of them are being bitchy little cunts about something as stupid as a WAR GAME. WHO GAF IF WE WIN OR NOT WE WILL NOT DIE

Jason seems to be the only kid that doesnt yell at me, which is pretty lit but also like, he doesnt yell at ANYONE. Its frightening. but Jason's a good guy. I am SO happy they elected him to be praetor. hes definitely making the fifth look pretty good nowadays.

I wouldnt be surprised if they ask Reyna to be a centurion after she hits her five years. shes WAY too good at some of this shit. I mean, I was spoon feeding my unconscious sister a bunch of nectar and crying like a little bitch, but reyna was actively rebuilding the city on sleep exhaustion, a leftover red bull I grabbed for her, and pure willpower. gotta say, its pretty impressive.

Its scary to see how much jason, reyna, and suki have grown in the past few months. Jason's a centurion and everyone loves him, and hes definitely becoming more confident. Reyna's become uncomfortably strong and bold but shes so creepy quiet, it makes me feel like she's plotting a death. and suki gave up her leg after "weighing pros and cons" just to be able to protect other people.

plus shes grown like, five inches since she came to live with us. If shes taller than me, Im gonna cut off her other leg and make them give her shorter prosthetics because I can NOT handle that type of embarrassment. like are you KIDDING ME? youre 14. youre 14 and you wanna be taller than ME?

maybe its weird that my only real friends are all 14. People make fun of me for it sometimes. Its not like Im not TRYING but people my age do NOT fuck w me for some reason. I keep asking my mom why, and she cant even give me a straight answer. maybe Im too sudden when I talk or something. Its not like Im a total asshole. Im a nice guy! you cannot see an 18yr old 6'1 athletic hottie buying his adopted japanese autistic sister new paints and think "uGh WhaT An AsShoLE!" like the math aint mathin.

sometimes its weird to think about having a sister. Ive been an only child my whole life. just me and my mom, which was nice of course. I love my mom a lot. it was weird when she married felix and I am still not QUITE sold on the guy. but he was chill.