Petals on The Moon || Reyna Ramirez-Arellano x Fem!OC

LVII

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Hello again,

I've had a fantastic week!

I haven't had so many consecutive good days in a really long time. I think the games really lightened everyone's moods, and plus, I now have my first girlfriend, Claire. She's really nice. I still have her roses on my desk, though they're kind of starting to wilt already, which is a little saddening. But, it's just part of life to die eventually, so it is what it is.

Claire has come to all of mine and Sebastian's shows and events, and even some of Reyna's when she was able to make it. Sebastian lost the chariot race because an arrow went through his armor and he nearly died, but he didn't, and then he proceeded to try to get in a fight. We both lost the talent show to a contortionist, a fire-blower, and an aerial artist who gave a performative sequence to a Fall Out Boy song, so there was just no way we were winning that. I won trivia pretty easily, which made a lot of people mad, since there is apparently no reason I should know all that junk.

Fourth of July was really fun. I invited Claire to sit with me and my family. Apparently, she doesn't really care about Independence Day, because she's French, but she ate so much apple pie, I had to take her home because she almost got sick.

Sebastian and Reyna have so far won every single fight they've been in with very little difficulty. Soledad and Jason made the executive decision to have no gender separation in the fights this year, because frankly, everything is very evenly-matched up, and there are actually more girls winning than boys. Reyna and I really like this because boys are a little bit exhausting.

Jason and Sebastian seem to be becoming really good friends, which I think is also cool. I came back from hanging out with Claire last night, and they were just sitting in my kitchen, talking about Sebastian's old Pokedex. Jason's favorite Pokemon is now Luxray. Sebastian insists that Garchomp is the best. Personally, I am a big fan of Celebi and Togepi, but I can't really decide. Claire's is Audino. Reyna doesn't know much about Pokemon, so I have made a mental note to also show her the Pokedex so she can pick.

I think this week has really made me excited to be alive, which is weird, because I don't even remember enjoying being alive. It's not exactly that I want to kill myself, because I would never do that. My friends would be sad. But, it's not exactly like I wake up every day and don't dread it.

I've started writing in Calliope's writing tablet rather than my diary. It is a lot more secretive and doesn't waste so much paper. It's a comfort to know nobody can snoop my thoughts unless I choose for that to happen.

I saw my therapist for the first time in a long time, and we ended up having a twice-as-big session because he had no other patients coming in and we had a lot to catch up on. And I told him how much fun I've had this week, and how much it makes me feel better about being alive. And honestly, I think it has made me feel better about being me.

I guess girls just don't like me just because, because Claire likes me, and she's a girl. So, I think I shouldn't be sad about that. I also feel pretty good about my singing. Lisa and Felix have elected to pay for a vocal coach just so Sebastian and I can work out the kinks, and they also bought a new computer so I can start producing some cool music. I've been playing around with it just to figure out how it works. I was able to recreate some cool Mario soundtracks from scratch, which Sebastian really liked.

I have also gotten better at walking with my leg. I think I will probably always walk a little funny, but maybe that's okay. When I reach my full height, I will probably end up having to hem the pants on that leg so I don't trip. Unfortunately, it's a little embarrassing that Sebastian had to help me WD-40 my leg. He actually didn't judge me though, which was nice. He actually judged me for my good leg.