Petals on The Moon || Reyna Ramirez-Arellano x Fem!OC

LIII

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my fight was over in like, four minutes, since Im just that guy.

I collected mine, reyna, and suki's money and just gave it all to Suki and told her how to divide it. her eyes widened at the sheer amount, but I was too distracted to linger. I bolted straight back to the school and found the music room before quickly sitting down at the drumset.

frankly, I was pissed. mickey and 2% had been my friends for like, five years, and suddenly ditched me just because they sucked at music and my mom doesnt lie. tbf, its not exactly her fault. she took an oath after splitting up with my dad to literally never lie again. I TOLD her it was a terrible idea, since sometimes, lying is necessary. she insisted it was not. so she has spent like, ten years working around lying. Its more work than just fucking lying.

so, I lied. It is def her fault, but wtv.

now, I had to learn an instrument I have never played before for a song I had to relisten to for about an hour straight on the living room TV bc those assholes insisted that if I was so talented, I must certainly be able to do this! they only let Suki stick with the bass since they cant play bass. i reminded myself that drums were just part of the rhythm, and all I had to do was maintain basic sounds and timing and I shouldve been fine, I suppose.

mostly I felt petty. I had a great plan to steal the show from their lame-ass hip-hop/rap duo bullshit. so I plugged in the electric drumset, put on the headphones, and got to work. I had to hum the lyrics to the song to keep myself in line, which sounded stupid because it's hard to play drums and keep any sort of key, but i managed up until the door opened.

I stopped promptly and saw Suki looked at me. She carried her bass case on her back and held two ice creams cones in her hand. "Mousy want a cone?"

mousy did want a cone. i got up, and she handed me the rocky road cone while keeping the vanilla for herself. "Hey! It's us!" She looked confused. "Rocky road is brown, you have white skin!"

"Interesting. I never realized that." We began our walk to the amphitheater. "Why do you want to spend time with Jason?"

"We never really have," I admitted. "So, why not? We're friends, he's cool, we kind of saved the camp together. And we're both boys, so maybe we want to... I dunno, break bottles behind the house while you go to Claire's house."

"Jason's not big on breaking things, I don't think."

"Well, he's big on breaking hearts," I teased. Suki snickered. She seems to be laughing more lately, which makes everything seem so much harder. "I hope you have fun at Claire's, Suki."

She nodded. "I- I want to try. I want more friends, it's just-"

"Scary." She looked at me and nodded. "Yeah. I get that."

I dont really have any friends. Im friendly with people, but none of them are exactly my friends, except for reyna, jason, and suki. Im a sociable guy. people just dont seem to like me very much. theres this rush of anxiety every time a new person talks to me, or every time I try to approach someone, which is bizarre. I dont exactly think I have social anxiety, but I do at the same time. being around other people is my element, but I absolutely loathe it at the same time, and almost feel like I cant breath around them. its weird.