Open Closets

It's Not Always 'Known Since a Young Age'

A/N: Hi lovelies, here is the 6th chapter, it's written by the amazing Shippinglife. She is one of the best writers here on wattpad and such an sweet person. A big thanks to you girl.<3 And thank you so much for the promo on Instagram.

Hey People my name's Carly Belle, you may or may not recognize me from thehomiesexuals on Instagram (PROMO).

Anyways I think you can tell by the username of that account I am definitely somewhere in the lgbt+ community. Openly I identify as a lesbian female.

So I used to have crushes on guys 24/7. Seriously in kindergarten I liked maybe 20 different guys but as I got older I started having fewer and fewer crushes. I had one crush in seventh grade but when I reached eighth grade I had feelings for absolutely no one, which at the time was strange for me.

I remember always getting 'those kind of feelings' for this one girl who was one of my close friends but I never admitted it to myself because the thought scared me. Up until fifth grade I actually thought the word gay was a cuss word, even though no one ever spoke badly about homosexuals around me.

Finally one night I watched Troye Sivan's coming out video on YouTube and I was BAWLING my eyes out over it because it made me come to terms with the fact I was interested in girls. Almost instantly I sent a large text to my friend Katherine basically coming out as bisexual. In the text I told her I understood if she didn't want to be friends with me anymore because she's Christian and I understood if she thought it was wrong (because we never talked about stuff like that in the past). I'm pretty sure that was the first panic attack I've ever had because I was crying and shaking uncontrollably. Despite my worries, Katherine texted back a few minutes later telling me to calm down and that everything was perfectly okay.

A few months later I came out to my sister in her car. She laughed and said she was bisexual too so there's that. About a week or two later I told her I'm really lesbian. A month later I sat down with my dad in his bedroom next to my sister and came out as gay. I was extremely worried to come out to him since he's Catholic and again we've never talked about stuff like that. He was admittedly surprised but supported me from the start. He bought a book that talked about homosexuality so he understood it more and never said anything wrong and to this day he still sends me links that update me about gay rights.

I also came out to my older brother that night. Needless to say he and my sister argued about who called it first. Lovely -_-

A week or two later my sister (With my permission) told my mom I'm gay and my mom told me she's been trying to get me to come out for months (I SWEAR SHE READ MY TEXTS OR SOMETHING).

FUN STORY: My sister ACCIDENTALLY told my grandma I'm gay and my grandma got upset. Why? Because she thought she had a good gaydar but she never guessed I was lesbian.

Advice:

Why am I telling you all of this? Multiple reasons. First off, when you hear coming out stories a lot of people say stuff like 'oh I've known since such a young age'. That makes me uncomfortable because not everyone knows from a young age. I certainly didn't but it's perfectly okay, no matter what age you figure yourself out.

Also, kind of like Troye said in his YouTube video, the coming out process isn't always difficult. I've come out to everyone and besides random homophobes on the internet I got full 100% support, even from people who didn't necessarily agree with gay rights. Don't stress out over it too much.

Along with that, so many people direct message us on Instagram saying they have been really depressed or feel worthless because their family or friends don't support them. I need you to remember this: I know family and friends are big people in your life, but they are just a few out of billions of people in this world you haven't even met yet. You'll find support, even if it's just not right now. Stay strong xx

I hope this helped you in some way maybe? Remember if things are hard right now they WILL get better. Stay strong lovelies!!! <3 -c.b.-

A/N: thanks again to Shippinglife, for helping me. She is an amazing writer and person with such a big heart and she helps so many people on Instagram with their struggles (thehomiesexuals). I'm really glade she is a part of this and I hope we could help you.
Remember you are not alone and we are here for you if you need anything or want to talk. Just comment or message us.
See ya soon with another update lovelies,
Byeee❤️❤️❤️